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doctorDee
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hello everyone...
this must be the umpteenth time im trying to make a "fresh start " with my studies... so wat makes this time different..? as of now.. nothing.. but its upto me to make it different coz i do promise myself to study harder this time.
all my mistakes till now...
1. Procrastination... big time...
2.Very easily distracted... too much tv.. too much sleep... unhealthy diet n insufficient exercise leading to low spirits and low energy levels..
3.Not keeping my dream in front of me every minute of the day... sometimes losing sight of it for days!
4.Letting my emotions control my studying... ' feeling too scared... feeling hopeless... feeling i'll never make it... feeling ive wasted too much time and its too late now... feeling guilty ... feeling alone... feeling bored...feeling sad...etc...."
5.Giving up too easily... if i fail to study properly for a little time it somehow ends up in wasting the whole day...
6. Letting the weather affect me!
7.Letting problems worry me too much n not concentrating..
8.Thinking and planning and dwelling "too much" on the future and not doing wats required in the present...
9. And how can i forget... too much net surfing!! esp..of this forum.... too much of a good thing is bad too.
Hmmm... basically i can find many more mistakes i have made...
from all these mistakes i see there is one pattern.... I JUST DONT SEEM TO HAVE THE PASSION N DESIRE TO STUDY FOR THIS EXAM!
just having a wish is not enough! you have to live and breathe your dream. Do i really want this 99 in step 1? do i really want a residency?do i really want to become a doctor?
Yes! to all of the above.! I WANT A 99. I WANT A RESIDENCY AND I WANT TO GAIN AS MUCH KNOWLEDGE AS POSSIBLE TO BE THE BEST DOCTOR THAT I CAN BE! I WANT IT. THIS IS MY PATH. I HAVE COME THIS FAR. I CANNOT AND I WILL NOT STOP.
OK. i still am on my first read. done with anat.. half physio. biochem the dvds..and few small other bits...
today is april 1st.. preparation time..5 months. (with one week in between for travelling)
exam date :not confirmed yet. but tentative is sept 10th.
so this gives me 5 full months. thats alot of time.
goal:
3 readings of kaplan. with dvds if i find them useful
goljan audio n rr for path
first aid
brs physio n beh sc for any extra matter in those subjects
(only for reference).. keith n moore, lippincotts pharm and biochem, ganong physio, robbins path
hy embryo n neuro n histo pdf files for extra matter
usmle world online n kap qbank offline
ok so thats all the material that has to be done...
i really cannot formulate a plan as to wen i'll finish wat... but i will study as fast as i can and try doing as much possible as i can in one day..
i can definitely devote 4 hrs in the morning... 4 hrs in the afternoon..and 2 hrs in the evenin... so that is 10 hrs average is possible definitely on weekdays... on weekend im sure i can devote 6 hrs minimum.
this seems too much...maybe.. but i have had enough fun n lazying around. i have watched enough tv ... to achieve a dream it takes sacrifice and hard work. there is no other route..
so enough of being ruled by my feelings and emotions. this time i will not fail in my effort. problems will come.. distractions will come.. but i will only see my dream at all times and i will open my book n study .. NO MATTER WHAT.
good luck everyone.
I'm going to discipline myself to get online only once a day at night ... i'l post my progress then. its around 11:40 am... i will tell u how i spent this first day ..
bye.
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| Strive4thebest
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Ur sentiments mirror mine. I am going thru the same situation.Procrastination seems to be at present my biggest virtue.In addition I have a job & family to take care of.All those of course r just excuses. Just can't seem to have a continuity.One day goes great & then next day I have some minor setback or don't feel like reading & then that is the end of my studies.I too lack the drive & the passion.Yet I want to do be a good doc.I love this profession.I love working with patients & I like the whole art of medicine.
Tell me how ur day went today.If it went great, how have u approached ur situation differently? I too need motivation.& the determination.I know if I can grasp that I'll be well on my way to success.
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| doctorDee
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hi strive4the best... hmmm its is around 5:30 pm.. u want inspiration from me? thats sweet... but im not in that place yet..
after i wrote my major speech...lets see... i did dishes ... then studied from 12 to 12:30 pm... then had lunch till 1pm... from 1 to 1:45 pm... now after this starts the fun... i felt really sleepy... tried to fight it... thought i'll nap for 30 mins... and guess wat... i slept till 5:10 pm... 3 hrs 25 mins! i dont know wat got into me. maybe the sleepiness is because of the weather and being cooped up inside the house.. either way i slept!
ok ... the previous me wud have felt completely dejected and i would have been too ashamed to post here... but strangely i find myself feeling calm now...its ok... i will learn from this n move on... i have to deal with sleepiness in better ways..if if feel sleepy...
1) get up and go and stand in the balcony and feel the cold air on your face for five mins..
and take books away from bedroom n study in another room.
2)next: wash face with cold water..
3)still sleepy.. make coffee and drink
still sleepy..? just pick a different subject and study it for 1 hour.
4)still sleepy? watch tv for exactly 10 mins..
5) still sleepy? shower..
6)still sleepy ?come online and post.
MORAL: it is better to spend 30 mins trying to fight sleep with all of the above rather than giving in and sleeping like a lazy fatted person for 3n a half hours !
i will do better from now.
ok dear ppl.. its 5;40 pm. JUST REMEMBER... WHEN YOU HAVE WASTED HALF THE DAY... YOU STILL HAVE THE REST OF THE DAY BEFORE YOU....
i promise to use it.. will post my progress at night
bye
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| antidepressant
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Hi DDee, thanks for dropping by and inspiring me, i saw your post in the morning, i thought if i study , then i will post, but it happened, yesterday i woke up at 11.30, today i woke up as soon as my husband left, made tea(which was not too strong, one cup), withing 30 minute, i felt inevitable desire to sleep, went to living room, laid in couch, started tv, cartoon was going on, and i felt asleep, woke up after 2 hours, and was very dissapointed, then started doing daily rituals, and then went back to studies, but guess what at 4 again sleepy, but i managed to take a nap of 30 minute. i have decided from tomorrow i am going to drink a big mug of very strong tea, that morning time sleeping was the killer. we have to be very hard on ourselves, most people are, then why we are not. i will catch up with you later, by posting my experience, i am not encouraging you to laziness by anyhow, we are in deep trouble, and we have to wake up! be very serious! lets be serious from now on! GL! lets do some hard work!
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| 5fluorouracil
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hey you guys! i can so totally relate..... coffee, coffee, coffee and then more coffee.... better to become a coffee addict and study than no study
oh well, anyhow, good luck, hang in there and happy studying! 
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| target
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hi doctor dee the good thing is you are back. Keep at it ! Passion leads to success. Good luck !Cheers
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| mjbapana
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Hi!! u all sound like me 10 yrs ago!!!!  and here i am 10yrs later a mom of 2 with hardly anytime to study in a day. if i'm lucky i get a max of 6hrs/day and if i'm extra lucky then maybe 8 but trust me that is very rarely.Believe me u DO NOT WANT TO BE IN THE position i am in right now. So pull up ur socks and get to serious work. 
I wish i could turn back the clock and redo not wasting so much of my time!!! And if wishes were horses beggars would ride!!!!!!!!
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| cutekity
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oh god !! you are really a mirror image of me ....it feels like its me who has written all these words you wrote !!! me strting my prep with a fresh start as well so lets keep checking on each other ...you know as the saying goes birds of same feather flock toghther ...so lets flock toghther and motivate each other to ace this exam !!! good luck dear
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| doctorDee
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hi everyone.... feeling so good reading all of your posts...its 7:25 am... and its a lovely clear morning... the sun really lifts my spirits...:-)
yesterday in the evening i studied for about 2n half hours... nothing soo great... but hey i felt it was a nice start... it was nice to be just able to read the book without fear pressure and inability to concentrate.... and since i slept so much in the afternoon i did not force myself to sleep... stayed up till one n read an extra hr... still night sleep was not so good... but its ok... my body has slept enough....it can deal...:-)
today afternoon i am going to go to the public library n study ... just for a change.... lets see how that goes...
am doin pharmac... done with first 3 chaps......
MORAL:
EVERY SINGLE DAY IS A VERY VALUABLE RESOURCE....THE DAY BEFORE OR THE DAYS TO COME ARE OF NO VALUE.....
STUDY TODAY WITH ALL THE SERIOUSNESS AND INTEREST AND INTENSITY U HAVE .... TODAY IS WAT COUNTS........
WILL KEEP POSTED....
EVERYONE IN MY BOAT ... COME ON....LETS PADDLE FORWARD ...DONT LOOK BACK... JUST PADDLE....
BYE
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| doctorDee
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hello... i know i said i'll post only once a day at night... but this is second post today... its ok... takin lunch break... studied 3n half hrs in the morn.... read 3 chaps from lippncots pharma... so feelin pretty good....
goal for today.... finish autonomic ns from kaplan n lippincott...its pretty imp... so i want to be clear with it... then do acid base balance in physio n try to figure out that mystery for good...
ok ppl... will study 4 hrs in the afternoon and will post my progress during evening break...
good luck:-)
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| doctorDee
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hmmm... studied 3 hrs in the afternoon... goal was 4 ... but watched my fav prog on tv for an hr... could not resist... its ok.... am not gonna get negative... now goal is to study 4 hrs more before i sleep... got 2 more chs in kaplan to finish auto ns... finished it from lippincott....
ok good luck... bye
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| luck08
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yeah sounds like me too. coffe coffe coffee....:nod
I like the ideas on how to stay awake!!
Good luck to us all!! Beat this step 1!!
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| precious
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Hi, DD.
Tea or coffee is the same for me, it doesn't quite work.
when i get back from working , I often fall asleep.
Ur words that u said are like what I am too.
We get through this Step 1 together.
GL
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| doctorDee
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hi precious n luck08 n other friends who dropped by... its nice to feel the support n company of others in this journey...
yesterday was good... studied 9 hrs... thats great for me... but i finished only ANS... cant believe i took so much time for it... but its quite puzzling .... n besides i read lippincotts too....
ok one day went well... now around 150 days left!
today second day... aim is to read 3n half hrs in the morn ... goin out for lunch... no idea wen i'll return... so let me atleast do the morn session well...
will read acid base balance from physio...
hardly slept last night.... kept wakin up... i hope in my efforts to stay awake i dont become an insomniac... its a terrible thing to suffer from...feelin dull headed...
well husband says to just give it a few days... study n exercise n your body will find its rhythm to sleep well at night...
MORAL: BE PERSISTENT IN YOUR EFFORTS...
OK GOOD LUCK....BYE
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| doctorDee
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hello journal...
i struggled n kept awake n studied about 1hr50mins in the afternoon... i paced up n down the room n did not sit... then i felt tired n just watched my fav program on tv for an hr... just could not resist...
hmm then read another 1nhalf hr in evening... was finishing renal physio although ve read it before.. read it from brs... its still pretty complicated....
so till now studied about six hrs today... am going to read 1 more hr today n go to bed early n try to get a good nights sleep... i need that...
ok good luck... gonna read acid balance now...
bye
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| doctorDee
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good morning...
7:40 am... nice clear morning:-)
yesterday read totallysome 7n half hrs...
read that renal properly... started acid base... but gotta do it properly now...
ok goal for today...
finish acid base from kaplan n brs...
then do as much of cardiac n renal pharmac possible...
will do it...
weekend comin...
so here is todays MORAL: LEISURE IS BEST ENJOYED WHEN IT IS PRECEDED AND FOLLOWED BY GOOD HARD WORK....
SO HERE GOES...
bye
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| mjbapana
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Hi!! Dd, thanx for dropping by, u r doing good so just keep it up!!!
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| doctorDee
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hello journal...
morning was good... put in good 4 hrs... finished acid base from brs and kaplan...
but after that went out for lunch... had to run errands outside... watched my tv prog(1hr!) and slept nicely for 1hr 30mins... but body really needed that sleep.... so 7 hours have just passed by without books!!!!
ok its 7;15 pm now... will promise to study a minimum of 3 more hours this evening...
am going to read something totally fresh for me... am gonna open my kaplan micro book and just mug for 3 hrs from it.....
k ppl... good luck.... bye
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| bhanusupriya
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hi doctor dee, my sincere thanks to you for your suggestion.
this is the first time i read ur journal,and felt that that ur progress is good.
here is another memeber's reply for my question.
anne wrote:
have your goal in your mind all the time, tell yourself: I WANT this to turn out good and I WILL make it turn out good by studying very hard because that´s the only thing I can do to control the situation
my situation is more or less same as urs...let's keep an eye on each other and ace this exam....
good luck buddy..
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| doctorDee
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good morning journal...
yesterday was not too great.... but still managed some 6n half hrs i think.... was doin lots of other stuff.......
anyways in the evenin yesterday i read about 19 pgs of micro...
was up till 1:30 am .....doin miscelllanous stuff n readin bits n pieces.....
ok today is the FIFTH day... 148 days left.........
goal..continue with micro today..... wen bored switch to pharmac.....
time is 8:35 am... woke up late.....
MORAL: A LATE START DOES NOT IMPLY IMPENDING FAILURE......... JUST MEANS U GOTTA WORK THAT MUCH MORE HARDER!!!
K GOOD LUCK.......STUDY REALLY HARD,......
BYE
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| match2010
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hi DD ..... loooks like we will be taking exam toghther !! i have it in last week of august and i just strted as well .....i have 141 days left so lets gear up and work this toghther and keep an eye on each other !!
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| doctorDee
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yeah sure match 2010... me next headed same destination....
k journal... weekend is happening... studied only about 2 hrs till now... its already 11:30am!
come on dee.....
go and read!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| doctorDee
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hello journal....
today saturday not good studywise... just read few more bacteria till nocardia... slept nicely in the afternoon n then went out in the evening for a long drive.weather is so beautiful........think ill just take it easy tonight n have fun......one day per week will be very easy..so saturday was my chill day this week.....
will not lose focus n get back though ... maybe tonight itself for 2 more hours.......
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| doctorDee
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hello journal.......
yesterday read some 2n half hrs whole day....... just relaxed n had fun........
not feeling so great about that though.....
147 days left...
today sunday......its around 9:25 am...have just been lazying around.
will go n finish cleaning n church n i guess cooking too....
will get to my books latest by 2:00 pm today.....thats a very late start to today.....
but i will study from 2:00pm to 5:00pm...then tea n some exercise.
then again study from 6:00pm to 11:00pm with 20 min dinner break...
so atleast can study a good 8 hrs still today if i work real hard.....
micro is not so nice... but will somehow wade through bacteriology interspersed with pharmac wen i get too tired.......
good luck all...
MORAL: Strong Convictions Precede Great Actions.......hmmmmm
n my mind is strongetrthan ever today to study!
Edited by doctorDee on 04/06/08 - 08:31 AM
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| doctorDee
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hello journal.........its 8:10 am ........very cloudy dull dreary morning..can even see some snowflakes... hmmm
its ok.....am not goin to dwell on it n let it affect me... although the weather forecast says its gonna be like this for the rest of the week....hmmmmmmmm
ok yesterday.....studied 3 hrs..... have reached pg 47 in micro...
very slow progress coz i think im reading from 2 bks.... will speeed it up somehow...
146 days left........ days are just flying by!!
ok todays goal...
micro: 50 pgs
pharmac: 25 pgs
will study 10 hours minimum!
lets see wat im really capable of...
MORAL: ca
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