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ok today was very much like yesterday was hoping to do today what i was supposed to do yesterday but its not gonna happenits 6:00pm got a few minutes so here i am to log in as i promised myself. in a few minutes got to start the nightly rituals dinner winding down and bedtime. hopefully i will be able to study for a few hrs tonight.
i won't be able to do everything but i think i will get started on the CVS path tonight and do what ever i can till i fall asleep at my chair.i think thats all the time i will get tonight.
But tomorrow is another day is what i have to tell myself. tomorro will be better as scarlett o hara says i think or atleast something about tomorrow!!!! i have to make tomorrow better for myself.!!! for tonight it is cvs patho.
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| Guyton
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hi,
yest'day i downloaded some HY stuff, will see how it works, will follow u r advice.
thanks for the encouraging words, i can count on u when i am down !
keep checking kalyan's journal
you will find some good web- links
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So yesterday was not as bad as i thought i managed to a little bit of CVSPatho and i think i should be able to finish it today. Also managed to do some UW q's. so am not estatic but atleast am not down about it.
so day do q's from CVS physio
and Finish CVS patho and
also do !0 Uw q's.!!!
will login again before going to bed.
Guyton, no thanx needed. just returning the favour. thats what friends are for. so study well and all the best!!!
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Did q's fro physio cvs.
did not finsh cvs path just managed to do 10 pgs.
also did a few topics in hematology
UW did 25 q's with detailed reviw of q's.
so not too dissatisfied..
Tomorrow finish q's physio cvs,
do some cvs path.
review wbc disorders. and not to for get the UW q's as many as i can.
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| drsaima
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Hey mary,
good work!
how is uw? ur experience?
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| mjbapana
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Hi!! Saima, thanx for dropping by. Uw is not as scary as i thought it would be. i'm not saying its easy but if u've read all of u r subjects it is definately do able.like every one says it is more of a study tool than a testing tool. the q's are definately more difficult than kaplan.but i think its a good idea to do uw from the beginning and then test u r self with kaplan. for me the topics i have covered really well were pretty good i mean i was able to answer them and the topics i just rushed through were really really bad so i'm planning to really focus on doing a good 1st reading.
see u around. mary.
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Hey mary
tell me you like my avatar...lol  
it says " Believe in yourself "
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hey mary,
that cheer leading thing........its working u know !!!!
now i got......the importance of it in games !!!!!
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today was satisfying not great but good in my vocabulary.
finished q's from physio cvs kap book.
finished goljan notes CVS
plus did some review in path hematology,
too sleepy to do UW q's today . so thats it for today.
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Good job! Keep it up!
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URL of study group:http://chat.paltalk.com/g2/group/1166230154/WebLo...
pm me for password.
You need to download paltalk from http://www.paltalk.com
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Ok The only thing i did yesterday FEB29 2008 was FA cvs physio!!!!then went out and had fun with my family.!!!
Yesterday was leap day(according to my daughter who is still trying to figure out what it is)!!!!
Today i'm gonna do FA hematology and CVS physio DVS which i still have'nt finished!!!! but today i will however long it takes me.!!!
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March 1st what did i do? was still leaping around and taking it easy.Did some FA hematology.
AHHHHH!! My son is going through this annoy every one stage!! prove to everyone that terrible two stage really exists and is not a myth. So thats what happened yesterday to top it all i'm not giving him the attn i used to before i started sitting in front of the books. so yesterday i spent the day spoiling him and dancing to his every tune. Today he is a happy boy again.but then tomorrow is another day. its not like i don't spend time with him at all come to think of it i don't unless we go out!!! at home i've handed him over to my sis in law from 10am - 3pm but then at 3 my daughter comes from school and then the attn is divided. feel so guilty some times. never had this prob with my daughter. b'coz wasnt studying at that time. To top it all every one looks at me like i'm the evil step mom b'coz i'm not paying attn to him but then do'nt realize that they are the reason i'm in the situation i am and my kids are paying for it thanx to them.
i don't have a choice. i have to get my life back on track. i'm hoping in a couple of years when they are older they would have forgotten this night mare. I know thtat my daughter wont but i'm hoping atleast my son will.
Anyway i'm not gonna brood over this have to get back to studying.Seems to me evryone i know is having a bad day!!! And at the end of all this i know this would have all been worth it.SOOOO!!!
So what i did today, finally finished watching the electrical activity part of cardiac muscle .still have the night left so i'm gonna probably do a little bit of FA hemat. lets see. i'm gonna log back in before i go to sleep.
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Its not bad days... budddy........
Its just that god thinks u r capable enough of surpassing all those hurdles to reach ur goal...thats to write this exam well.... so the no. of obstacles u face all depends on how much god thinks u r capable of overcoming them.... and if u do..... u get a bravo...!!!! from god and u wil be granted with what u want with this exam...
I loved ur motivational words in my journal...Thnx a ton for those... Really needed them today as i am startign my 2nd read....
So pls think that u r a really capable of doing this... devoting some time to ur little ones and also devoting QUALITY time to USmle prep.... Any help with study strategies...pls shoot them and u can get good advices from many frends out here.
Ok then see you soon .
Bye
Kal 
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Prepare as if you're the worst, Perform as if you're the best! As you dream, so you manifest. So, DREAM BIG!! When you face hardship, remember, God never gives you more than you can handle. Murphy's Law states: Eat one live toad first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you for the rest of the day.
borrowed this from paheli!!
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Hi mjbapana, thank you very much for spreading encouraging words everywhere in the forum. Your posts are so nice and full of encouragement , they keep me moving. You are doing great in your prep. I hope I can follow your footsteps.
Wish you good luck.
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GL bapana, Good going!
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thanx Kalyann, kamyabi and antidepressant for dropping by, with encouraging words really appreciate it.
I thnk i'm having one of those weeeks when nothing really productive happens how ever hard u try. have nothing much to write in acheive ment of goal for the day but like i said i'm gonna be honest and login every day and put in what little i've done.
today started RS pathology did half of it and thats it. Had a lot of work to catch up on had a really exhausting day so i'm gonna crash early.
So let me look at the positive side of it all. since jan 17 th
finished genpath
sys path hemat, CVS. 1/2 Rs
Physio: chp1, 2, skl musc, peripheral circ, cardiac musc le.
some uw q's, alittle bit of FA
ha ha ha, whom am i trying to convince does'nt look impressive to me but well thats the best i could do so
TOMORROW is another day. i'm starting to sound like scarlet o hara of gone with the wind.
Tomorrow i have to finish RS PAtho and also start RS Physioi doubt i can finish bboth tomorrow. lets see.
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[quote=mjbapana
I thnk i'm having one of those weeeks when nothing really productive happens how ever hard u try.
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mj, atleast you tried. i am unhappy because i dont try, but i do agree, you would be much happy if you would have achieved more. buckle up.
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Hi!! Antidepressant ,
nice to see u again.i think i'm coming down with the flu. today was very much like yesterday. but accomplished a little more than yesterday.
finished path RS
did a bit of Hematology review.
DID alittle bit of Micro.
going to go to bed early hoping that tomorrow i'm going to be fine. and hit my books with gusto.
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hey mary,
how r u feeling today ? get well soon bud !
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what is a perfect study ????can anyone define .my defintion of a perfect study is study from 10-5pm everyday with few breaks is a perfect study .but that is perfect for a day .
what is a perfect study for a week ????studying from 10-5pm atleast 4 days a week is perfect ????
what happens if nikhil is sick and 1 whole week is gone and then the next week also gone for rejuvenating .what happens if all of the months go by like this .i can easily let the years go by like this what should i do ????????
nikhil is my son
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HII!!Janaki,
u really sound paniced and frustrated. Ok let me start out by saying that i am not giving advice, what ever i write here is out of my experience as a mom and student.
See once we have children they become our priority inn life exclusive of all else.that is our culture, and i understand u r fear of letting the years go by b'coz that is exactly what i have done. i grad in 2000. came here in 2000. had my first kid in 2001. and then exited all thoughts of USMLE b'coz i was so wrapped up in my world never had the time to sit down and study. its not that i had'nt tried but like u i felt u had to sit consistently everyday for a min of 7-8 hrs and then finish the exam in6-8 months atleast thats what everyone does.so i htought that when my daughter goes to school i will study then my son happened. and whoosh usmle out the window. now my son is 2yrs old. and the realities of life have caught up with me i realized with 2 kids my world is NOT going to be perfect for studying or anything.IT IS ONLY GOING TO BE AS PERFECT AS I MAKE IT.which means basically not and u take what ever u can and make the most of it. I have been officially studying from OCT at that point i had only 4 hrs /dayand i was touching my books after 7 years not counting the innumerable times i've started reading and gave up after 2-3 days. it was awful. it was so slow i wondeed if i ever had been a doctor, how could i forget all this stuff i've given exams in this stuff and passed and i still could'nt remember or read fast. then in Jan i started reading with study partners and then that made a lot of difference for me.i never could do that before back when i was in college.that was when my studied started picking up momentum b'coz now my time was set and those 4 hrs were dedicated to other people no excuses and then once i started learning stuff i added some night hours from my sleep to my study schedule. so now i'm at 6-7 hrs / day which is not great compared to all those who put in 10-14hrs/day. but i'm a mom with 2 kids and a family to run. it might take others 6-8 months its gonna take me a year so what. I want a residency even if it takes me 2 years. what ever i read i read it well but of course u forget so what when i'm in q's stage i will review with q's and i'm bound to recall then.
7 yrs ago my aim was95-99 now my aim is anywhere above85. i've had to scale down and i'm not ashamed of it. its just that i don't have much of a choice and my SIGHTS are set on the GOAL not the MEANS.
everyday i leave my son with my sis in law from 10-3 from 10-2 i study with my friends, 2 i go to pick my daughter from school , i go little early and sit and do a min of 5 q's from q book waiting for her to come out. then i come heome and it is family time. food home works playtime cooking time and everything else time bed by 8:30. my little guy needs me till he falls asleep.9-10:30, clean up, prepare for the next day clean up kitchen and by 10:30 -10:45 it is back to my books till1-00am. then wake up at 6:30.and the cycle begins.
where do i make up for lost time, i don't play with my daughter anymore. don't watch TV with her. I have'nt played with my son as much as i used to with my daughter.i don't take them to chuckee cheeses, anymore. anywhere we need to go if my husband is home i send them off with him, but i don't go. I do'nt go to movies with my daughter.i take her to dance class with ear phones in my ears or with a book in hand or some flash cards in hand. when i do have to go shopping i have ear phones on listening to lectures. i go to the bathroom do'nt come out with out doing 3-5 q's.
when my kids fall sick i give them all the time they need compromise on sleep do a little bit of light reading or Q's during that time take it as not lost time but q's time and dust it off and get back to where i was before it all happened. see the idea for me is to do a good first read however long it takes and then do quick reads later when i put my son in daycare in a couple of months and then concentrate on q's.
when i fall sick i feel like the earth is coming apart ,!! I learnt this from my husband. however a bad flu he has or cold he will just pop a couple of tylenols and go to work b'coz he cannot let down the people there.of course when he goes to work h will not be able to give his 100% but atleast gives it 90% and then his co workers help him out too b'coz even one hand short causes mayhem in their ER.And then i started thinking if i was working is'nt this what i have to do too? and that Thinking solved my problem. i'm lucky thati'm at home when i sick. so i can get some rest. i pop n some tylenols for a day or 2 and then get back to my books. b'coz i have o make the best o f what i have.
i totally understand how u feel.i don't know if what i have written is gonna help u or not honestly i started typing and i don't know if any of it makes sense to u i just wanted u to know that u r not the only ones who feels tjhis way i've spent years being that way and i don't want to that is why i have made the changes in my life that i have had to, they are tough desicions but u have to make them. Iwant to be there for my children when they are older when they hit puberty i don't want to be buried in my books then my daughter already feels that i am not spendidng enough time with her so i tell her once i finsh with the exams i will be able to do anything that she wants to. i tell her that when she is 8 yrs old i want to be able to go to movies with her and shopping with her and be her friend. and that is really what i want to do, be there for her then.right now she is still small and does'nt need me as much.i personally feel it is better to compromise now than when they are older and need us more and REMEMBER more.
Janaki sick days will come in everyones life then we have friends who will drop in or relatives who will decide they want to visit us or we just have to go shopping. if u let all this get u down u will be waiting to write USMLE even after10 yrs. Don't let this get u down. down spend a week getting back on ur feet. pop in some tylenol and hit u r books. i'm not saying full time but atleast 2 hrs or even 1 hr. stay in touch with u r books. do q's if u cant focus and study. watchDVD;s they do not need too much thinking. For a mom or anyone with responsibilities THERE IS NO PERFECT STUDY SCHEDULE OR PERFECT TIME!!!! get that down. assimilate it. it might sound harsh but only u can make the desicion, how badly do u want this. i 'm telling u this b'coz i waited 10 ys for the perfect study environment until life HIT me big time in the FAce. there is never gonna be a perfect time for studying. get on with life,and studies.do what u can in the time u have.i am saying u should'nt aim high but i'm saying u have to learn to make the best of what u have it might take u longer than others but don't let the long turn in to years!!!!!
so what 2 weeks are wasted right post pone u r exam by 2 weeks and read. if another 2 weeks get wasted postpone by another 2 weeks at some point u r going to get tired of 2 weeks postpone ment and u will make extra effort to get better in 10 days then 7 days then 3 days. just try it Janaki. Don't PANIC. Don'tGIVE up now. DOn't get FRUSTRATED. u r learning to ride a bike u have fallen off. dust ur self off get back on the BIKE.
I don't know what else i can tell u i wish i had some one whack this into my head a couple of years ago but anyway no time for regretts i had to learn this all the hard way. i am only going to be praying for u. and i know u will get back on track. Just understand this Janaki. there is no PERFECT time for studying once u have responsibilities.
this is a really long post might take up the whole page but i hoppe it helps u in some way. will be praying for u, all the best.
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Ok!! Hav'nt been logging in for the past 2 days not that i have not been studying or anything like that just that i've been absolutely exhausted so did'nt have stamina to log in. anyway lack of sleep caught up with me today and i crashed out during the day for a sloid 2 hrs thanx to my sis in law. anyway i'm wide awake.so
last 2 days have'nt touched physio or or path. i've been at these subjects for the past month half way through them but no where near completing them so i gave a break to them and started anat and immuno.
Immuno chp1,2
Anat histo kap chp 1,2,3,4,5
today came back to path finished GI.
not bad for 2 days. me thinks.
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