step2ckjan07
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I am pretty depressed today. I dont know why though. Maybe its because in this competitive race we are losing our human self. Maybe its just that its my first day staying home after a month of working 7days/week towards my USCE...I feel so strange today. I was expecting a call from a PD today who had verbally selected me an for an externship position for the month of sept but that guy is no where to be found. I left messages sent emails...but no response. This has happened to me in April too at another program so i am quite skeptical now. At that time i thought maybe i didn't try harder, i didnot follow up enough...but now i dont know. What do these people expect us to do...start rolling under their feet, sell every last piece of dignity we have...how many messages should be left before they feel compelled to answer?....i dont know....
Today i had planned i will write my PS, search programs, i couldnt do either...i am just so depressed.
This week I emailed a few friends, those that i made during this USMLE ordeal who vanished somewhere....but i guess they are too busy....these are the people i shared everything with regarding USMLE, files, qbanks, books....I even stayed up all night 2 wks before my exam to upload FA so that my friend could have it. Right after i came back from my test, i emailed them my "detailed" experience without thinking how tired i was from sleepless nights and 9 hrs of tough exam just to help them calm down for their exam next week...These friends are no where to be found now. Just because i may have a little better chance at residency, because i have a GC, scores in mid 90's a little USCE...i guess noone wants to share with me the program info anymore. Suddenly i am not a friend but a danger to their dream.
Guys no one can take away from you whats truly yours, your destiny...Lets not loose our humanity in this mindless game of MATCH!
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| medicus_81
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Hey buddy,
I could start encouraging you by telling you a lot of bla bla stuff, but I"ve been there( that particular situation where you feel abandoned by the whole world) and this kind of words did not help me then. You sound like a go-getter but also like a good and reliable friend. Don't change.
It is always hard when you loose innocence- i.e. loosing the good faith in friends, unmet expectations, etc. But a time of great challenge is also a time of growth. If you have never been pushed to your limits-physical and mental, you would have never grown. A very wise man said to me: God will never give you something you cannot handle.
You did your best. Don't let anything change the direction you're heading.Keep working on what you can change, leave the rest.
And good luck!!!!
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| azygous
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step2ck....chill out..
watch a movie..have a beer spent some time reading nice book...or volunteer in a homeless shelter...u will feel better..
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| kykie
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I am sorry about the difficulties u are goin thru.We have all been there, no one said gettin into residency in the united states would be easy.Expect more of these feelings to come, as september- march can be quite nerve racking.You just have to try your best to cope.At least u have some USCE and even got INITIAL postive response from PDs.I have sent out several emails pertaining to research/observership/externship that i have now decided to take it easy and work on my applications.
That said,about ur friends, what can i say, thats how life is.My advice to you is that, the only person who is responsible for YOU is YOU!Dont expect any help from any1.If you happen to get help, see it as a bonus, but dont feel bad when u dont get it.I feel u should work on your own to find program info.You can do searches on this website, see places where people with credentials like urs matched into.Also u can email programs directly yourself.I feel u should take up the responsibility of finding out about programs urself,dont depend on any1 so as not to be disappointed.The good thing is that , with this internet age, no information is hidden from any1.Wishing u all the best and try to lighten up.Your credentials are better than most
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| Moozy
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this is the most stressful time, cheer up ...If i can do it with my credentials.. so can you.
Some one once said ;
Roses are red And Violets are blue
Have'nt heard from you
In a long time too
Should I be sad or should I be blue
Or should I consider you to be my very old shoe
And toss you down into the deep river blue
NAY said the wise man
NOTHING LIKE THIS SHOULD YOU DO
Just remember this one thing
It really really is TRUE
Friends are those ... Who are with you in HAPPINESS
But come your time of misery
they are gone without a clue
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| prader-willi
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step2ck....
1 piece of advice which has reaally helped me deal with the bitter experiences the past Match nd helpin me go on...
" hang on in there......life's gonna be good "
dats what i can give u right now
gd luck
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