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15 hrs. Ur last 2.5 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are still dates when i am just sitting with my books.  Today for example my splitting headache has not let me read a word. And to think I dished out home-work! 
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| Feyza
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Im trying to reflect aallll the mess and confusion and fear I went through... because I dont want you to do so !!! remember ?? I did pass !! If I kept calm...I would definetely score higher...
oo...wait...these are actually calm days...I didnt start throwing up out of stress yet
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| mytime
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Now where is the kissing and hugging smiley. Tankzzzzzzzzzz Hons! 
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| Feyza
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MAY 2 :
HAVE TO FACE THE PHYSIO NIGHTMARE B4 ITS TOO LATE !
ok...I will go on with physio ! God help me ! huge book and this time only the first 20 pages are read before...dont even know the normal value of Na concentration and its MAY 2 !
*&*&%$&^*()()(&@#%$(^@ 
of course I will have to delay and what will happen to my promise to my son about our summer 
Edited by Feyza on 07/30/07 - 05:01 PM
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| Feyza
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mytime !!! come on sweetie !! Im sure you did everything that has to be done once... how about giving a last 2 month shot and finishing this crap ??? come on hun ! what are you waiting for !!!!!!
you can do it if you want 
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| kity
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hi feyza.... your journal is a true reflection of an IMG facing this beast called usmle...
really loved reading every bit of it..
Its about to b 3 am ..I was suppose dto study... But read whole of your journal... it was really v.v nice idea to start journal.. It gives us lots of hope
...reading your journal brought tears & laughs to my face....
I hope I too realize procastination is not the way to success.. it only makes sufferings longer....
Ok after reading your journal.. it comes to my mind what I am lacking this time.. today I decide to eat, sleep & dream USMLE... I want to get it done by sept....
thanks for being eyeopener...:
I will read it again when I feel out my goal.. I wish I had read it earlier... then I wouldnt have wasted my whole last week..
GL for score& residency...
Edited by kity on 07/31/07 - 01:09 AM
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| Feyza
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thank you very much dear kity  Im feeling as happy as I got 99 when ppl here are motivated ... best luck dear
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MAY 2 ,9:00 AM ...
really freaking out I had no good physio education in college... how Im I supposed to do it ?? ok lemme start !
13:00 AM...its not working...the book is huge...doesnt seem to be crammable in 7 days I should figure some way out should I leave physio ??
lemme eat lunch...maybe I gotta write it to keep myself concentrated and make my second read easier...hmm..good idea...never mind lunch...off me goes to the stationary ...buy a notebook with giraffes and monkeys and pink glitters on it
IT WORKS.....5:00 PM....Im done with 40 pages...
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| Feyza
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I simply summarised Kaplan physio books...made my mneumonics...own charts and tables...colored pix...it was very fun and kept me concentrated and paced me up...reading that huge book would be really boring...
the Kaplan physio book is more than enough and the prof in the DVDs is pretty good !
remember ?? VEEERRRRRYYY IMPORTANT POINT TO UNDERSTAND
10 DAYS GONE THO !! AGAIN ONLY LIKE 50-60 qS FROM Q BANK !!
NO GOOD
later this notebook helped me a lot and I had the opportunity to revise all physio in only 13 hrs in one whole day
no Qs thanx God there were not many pure physio Qs and the concept I got by studying this way helped me a lot in many Qs ...
as I said in my exam exp...maybe if I had done more Qs I would feel more doable in the exam...I had to think and figure out many things DURING THE EXAM which made me lose time ...and probably all those were already in the Qbanks so even I passed with this prep...you guys DO NOT WORRY JUST READ AND GO AND GET IT
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| Feyza
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SO ITS MAY 12 !!
I learned micro ...biochem ...physio really very good but very very little amount of Qs
path seems good...
STILL NO qS...ONLY 15% OF KAPLAN Q BANK DONE !!
WHATS LEFT ?? beh sci and anatomy and pharm-the-second-nightmare !!!
TIME LEFT ??38 DAYS !! DAMN !
THE FIRST DAYS iM FEELING REALLY REGRETFUL THAT i APPLIED AND AM RELLY STRESSING OUT !!!!
Edited by Feyza on 07/31/07 - 04:00 AM
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COPY PASTING A POST FROM THOSE DAYS :
I read Mr Maverıck sayıng he was done wıth the Qs 4 months ahead I was lıke  but we gotta keep confıdent and rely on short memory ! hope Im not dependıng on false hopes whıch wıll make me faıl but I dont wanna get depressed at thıs poınt...what do you thınk ? do you have the chance to reschedule or ıs ıt the last day of your elıgıbılıty perıod ? I can reschedule but I read ın FA statıstıcally ppl dıdnt get hıgher scores by extendıng theır days...so...LETS DO IT
I WONDER IF I WAS BELIEVING IN WHTA IM WRITING THOSE DAYS 
Edited by Feyza on 07/31/07 - 04:12 AM
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ANOTHER ONE...POSTED THIS ON MAY 10 :
me ? well...I dont know wut its called in english..those little pipes...you dip into your cola and sip it with it.... my pipe is with its one end in my skull and the other in Kaplan stuff ...taking big big gulps 40 days left
my cutie pie sweet sweet 4 yr old son is leaving for US tomorrow with grandmom for 20 days so Ill be studying better and will finish UW in those 20 days...but Im gonna miss him like crazy hope I dont depress and cry for 20 days ...
crammed physio ...only GIS left...
anatomy will be read for the second time...
I can spare only 7 days for one last read
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH ! pray 4m
PS : sorry for not being a polyanna today
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| Feyza
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UNIQUE TAUGHT ME THEY WERE CALLED 'STRAWS'
I could never finish GIS physio and thanx God there was only 1 Q about secretin in the exam
I could never finish UW either !!
I want a time machine and study step 1 again with this conscioussness of mine !!!!
DO I ??? 
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| Feyza
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nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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| Feyza
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all I wanna say is ...when I return back to those prep days and recall back my feelings and mistakes...I felt like this for a second ...but no ..all I want is to learn my score now
but for sure I will aim for a 90 + for step 2
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THE DAY MY SON LEFT...I STARTED BEH SCI
hes gone back in my library...red eyes sniffing....I know ıts silly and I gotta stop this...ppl r dying !!! hes just gonna have great fun there and Ill be studying better...ok...Im studyıng to give him a better future and be a nicer model for him...I didnt send him there to have holiday here ...Im studying and after 37 days...all these will be forgotten if I stop this silly mood and study to pass...cuz if I dont..Ill be sad but hell be unaware of anything...
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A FEW DAYS LATER :
about to finish beh sci...I still have anatomy b4 I get started with UW If ever the gene in the lamp showed up nowadays...I would wish that days were 48 hrs
PS : Im a donkey if ever I cry after my son after now !! He...little puppy...is soo happy that hes not even coming to the phone to say hi
he says : mummy yeaa I miss u too but Im doing this very slowly cuz I wanna see Niagara and the zoo too
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ABOUT BEH SCI :
I was aiming to finish it in 3 days ... 1 for stats and epidemioligy and 2 for the others bc Mr Daugherty was really very good on the DVDs .. bt as always ...I COULD NOT FOLLOW MY SCHEDULE AND DID IT IN 6 DAYS !!!!
classical Feyza...drowning in details...spending hours to understand the examples of (-) and (+) reinforcements and punishment ...not even a single Q ! very very easy stats Qs ...lots lots of PDR Qs and a few DSM manual and 2 about CAGE Qs ...
had no time for the last pharmacology chapter and left it to be covered with pharm book... ( NEVER DID IT THO )
gave 5 hrs to drug abuse...only to face 1 Q in the exam ...
I GUESS WE SHOULD SKIP NO SUBJECTS ... BC THERE ARE qS FROM EVERY CHAPTER ...MAYBE 1 MAYBE 6 ( as there were 5 tract Qs from anatomy in my exam ) SO WE SHOULD NAOT TAKE THE RISK... IF YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO TIME...AT LEAST CRAM FA ...YOUR POSSIBILITY THAT YOU WILL DO THE Q CORRECT IS 85%
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| Feyza
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ANOTHER COPY/PASTE FROM MY POSTS :
all I wanna say is PLZZ MY FRIEND ...PLZ DO IT VERY QUICKLY ..STUDY AS YOU LL HAVE THE EXAM IN 3 MONTHS ...NEVER LET YOURSELF SPOIL YOUR SCHEDULE THINKING THAT YOU HAVE TIME AHEAD...CUZ THE LONGER IT GETS THE MORE YOU LOSE WILL AND MOTIVATION...THATS BC U WONT BE EASILY RECALLING THINGS U CRAMMED 9 MONTHS BEFORE AND THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL HORRIBLE!!
this was my bisggest mistake... actually...if you didnt do it yet ...apply and get the day first after a realistic schedule and study under adrenalin shower best best luck !
HEHE NOW IM CHANGING THIS ... KEEP YOUR PREP TIME SHORT AND APPLY AFTER YOU READ ALL ONCE
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| Feyza
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SO ITS MAY 20 ...SON WILL COME BACK IN MAY 31...I WAS PLANNING TO DO ALL UW WHEN HE WAS AWAY NO UW + ANATOMY AND PHARM STILL WAITING FOR ME
lemme go for anatomy now !!!
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Hello,
reading your retrospective view on the days before the exam is better than Harry Potter ( no offense ), I just feel the adrenalin rush, as I'm grasping your words even without breathing...learning from your mistakes which I could still prevent, learning from your strength, what makes me even stronger. I'm very thankful for bringing it out, for many of us it's an eye opener,( maybe we should make you sticky ? ), to see it is normal feel disorganized for many months ,till we really hit the books.
Wish you a great residency, which will make you happy, for your family a lovely new home in US.
The doors are now open.....
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| paheli
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wow, feyza. you're really great!! see how everyone is relating to every word you type? i guess each img has their own story, as each of us makes it against the odds. we're not going with the flow, but against the tide. it's only proof of what we're worth when we look at those who've made it already, and those of us still working toward it.
this thread of yours is just amazing. i wonder how you'll keep it up, coz once you say that the story is over, there might be resistance to that!!
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p.s. i hope you've kept your word to your adorable son!! the best summer ever.....!!
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| Feyza
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it IS normal goodgirl ...I know hard to do than to say ...but plzz help yourself about keeping calm and consistent and it WILL pay
I did keep my word Paheli he opens his eyes early in the
morning to yell : MUUUUMMMM WHATS THE PROGRAMM TODAAAYYYYY I once intended to leave her to my mum for a couple of hours for some ...ummm...well you know...girly stuff ... and he said : HEYYY...WHAT DID YOU TELL MY GRANDMA ?? NOOO KEREM (thats his name) TO YOU AFTER THE EXAM !!! SO NOOO ME TO GRANDMA NOW ! IM COMING WITH YOU !!! little monkey
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MAY 20...ANATOMY...1 MONTH LEFT :
Only stress for me at this point was I was lacking the MCQs but felt peaceful that I read everything (except anatomy and pharm ) once very well and I was feeling ...ummm yeaaaa I remember them all
the day I started anatomy...I was sure it would be easy bc I had done the neuro part b4 once very good last year and I felt ok with histo...and gross would not be a big deal I thought ...WELL IT TURNED OUT TO BE SOME OTHERWISE
THERE WERE ONLY 11 DAYS TO THE DAY KEREM WOULD BE BACK AND I WAS PLANNING TO DO ANATOMY AND HALF OF FA ...the day he came I was still having a box match with gross
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