samdoc
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BISMILLAHHIRRAHMANIRRAHEEM
This is my daily dairy of i how i manage to keep away from hobbies and interests and manage to concentrate on the IMPORTANT things of life! - one of them being USMLE!
I have studied hard for a few months and then something comes up and i am washed away from studies for months on stretch and by the time i realise and muster the courage to start up again, i am back to square one -- the first chapter of the kaplan book. This may sound ridiculous to some people , but its true! And unfortunately it has happened to me not once But Twice , and cost me alot of my time , alot of precious time from my life.
I am supposed to concentrate but easily get distracted , either because of responsibilities or Hobbies, i know the latter is totally my Fualt and i am to be Blamed for it.
I have already attempted an exam once , and am sorry to say i didnt pass , the second time i wanted to give the exam i had a baby, and after that you can imagine , every lady who has had a baby and is in the middle of the USMLE struggle knows whats its like.
I will be writing more later.........
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| pasteur000
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Friend,
You summed up my exact situation. My situation is ditto and it is not funny anymore. You will achieve your goal. 
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| ellen
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if u believe on allah and urself nobody can stop u until u have it inshallah.keep it up we all here to help each other in bad and good.
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| samdoc
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Thanks pasteur and ellen,
pastuer , i thought i was the only one with such a sorry situation. And yes i need the reassurance that i can do it.
Thankyou for your encouragement
Lately i have lost most of my self confidence , even my self esteem.
I have to bring myself up and work on this and get over with successfully-InshaAllah!
Edited by samdoc on 05/18/07 - 09:01 PM
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| samdoc
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I should be honest about my studies everytime i post ,
I'm being honest:
This weekend i didnt study anything!
I feel terrbile,
I was busy taking care of my baby and shopping for my sister in law's wedding which is coming up soon.
Pays me not to finish studying before i get piled up with more responsibilities.
Will chart out a reasonable plan today and stick to it even though it means a page a day.
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| pasteur000
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Samdoc - you are right. We have to realistic about our plans. Reading 30 pages of Goljan has always been my plan but not realistic. It is tough for me to read 30 in one day even if I spend 10 hrs or more. GL and hope you start your reading.
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| samdoc
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I am Back!!!!!, Yes FInally back!!, decided to write after a long gap and a truckload of guilt.
After February was a daze.
Got so busy with the wedding preparations,
Now i am back home but with my inlaws.
though they are really nice, its not easy,
you cant jst close the door of your room and sit for hours studying.
I have been struggling to study the past 15 days but managed to complete a measly 10 pages of the physiology chapter. I wanted to finish something solid before i write something, but , i was just taking too long to complete a substantial amount to proudly note down.
Decided against that and am writing my (snail paced) progress anyway.
I feel bad writing down my super slow progress, but this is what this journal is about: being honest and persistent in my studies.
I am in the last page of the of the Adrenal Hormones chapter , will drag myself through that and then write some more..........
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| samdoc
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AAaaannndd I am Back again,
Aaah yes back to my good ol journal ,
I wish i could have updated you all these past weeks.. err months
But alas , responsibilities,distractions ,obligations have become a part of life , and I have to learn to live with them,and study at the same time.
These past few days i have been doing Pathology lectures while listening to Goljan.
The last i left off was at the Adrenal chpater in Physiology, i was almost done with that ,and another gush of responsibilities and distractions swooped by and i got lost in them again,
well anyway i just have to learn to go on with all that going on on the side,
i realized Physiology was getting to be drag so i switched to Pathology and started with Goljans lectures which are full of energy.
I'm in neoplasia right now and am almost done,
Somehow Listening to his lectures and noting down important points is pretty time consuming. But once i'm done i'm sure the revision will be much easier.
well ,i'll be back to update you when i start Hematology,which will be tommorow InshaAllah!
i shall try and update you more often from now on,
HAve to start moving on in life, and move quickly!
Edited by samdoc on 07/23/07 - 08:26 PM
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| Pediatrician2B
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Hey I think we r in the same boat.I too have responsibilities at home & several excuses such as work,in-laws,toddler, household chores etc.I too procrastinate.Cannot sit at a stretch.But still have to do this.We can all work together in helping each other out,voicing our frustartions & just never giving up
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| dr.samar
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hii every one ;
SAMDOC what books that u r studying from? for review and Qs
and good luck in
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| samdoc
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Have been depressed and frustrated with my routine for the past few weeks,trying and wanting to study ,but just am not able to.
i dont want to blame some one else for my situation, frankly i am so absorbed with my baby's routine that i am not able to study properly, and by the time he's asleep i am tired and have lost all interest in resuming studying and end up browsing my hobbies instead.Its not my poor little ones fault.
Its mine, i hadn't made enough use of time to finish all this before my little one came, it's all my fault.
And this is exactly how i would put how depressed i am.
This is Urdu written in English---
" Kahin safar hai
Kahin Raasta hai manzil ka
Kahin safar hai
Kahin Raasta hai manzil ka
Ye raat din ki ghutan kyun Azaab hai dil ka
Rawaan hai kishti magar har taraf andhera hai
Rawaan hai kishti magar har taraf andhera hai
Ye dosh kisi ka nahin, khusoor mera hai
Bujha hai mere hi haton se chirag saahil ka. "
-- Dont know who the author of this is
But it aptly describes my present state,
i feel sad, depressed , unhappy and lost.
My " Manzil ka Raasta" is becoming a never ending " safar"
I dont want this to happen...............
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| samdoc
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Coming back to write my journal after weeks took up some courage.
I have had enough of trying hard,and i still have to just admit that i am not doing well.
My studies are going so slow.
Its not easy with a baby,its really not,by the time you settle down to study , your exhausted or have just lost the mood.
I have lost every bit of zest for life.
Its not just my studies suffering,its my everday routine ,the normal things i do seem mundane,slow.
I have to get out of this before it becomes a chronic state,or is it too late.
No ,you can bring yourself up, you have to..
Stop , look at your life,your routine,yourself.
Oh Allah help me get up, do something and be something.
About the actual study part,
I have been struggling through Neuroanatomy for the pastweek.
I 'm stilll in brain stem.its very llong and seems hard to do, but i struggling through it.
I feel i've gotten used to rote reading , ofcourse i read with understanding and associate things with each other,but i've gotten used to information being given to me.
When i solve the questions behind the chapter itfeels like too much work, perplexing.
I have to get myself used to questions more ,
maybe even solve a few MCQs everday.
I pray that the next follow up post is after i finish Neuroanatomy , and it doesnt end up being after weeks or months, like my journal has become since i started.
Will get back to you in a day or 2 InshaAllah.
Edited by samdoc on 10/30/07 - 05:12 PM
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