medocuk
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I failed step one. Some times I almost this that isnt me.This failure.I cannot fail...but then I have.
So here I am back again this time hoping to do things correctly.I have to.I want this so bad it isn't even funny.Unfortunately I haven't exactly behaved like this is exactly what I wanted.
So now I am going to write in here and make this my back bone.
I am going to attack step one.
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| medocuk
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So here is what is happening with me.I have booked CSA for April 24th thinking that I would have passed. So my focus of attention will be that exam for now. Also once in the US I want to start reading for Step one.I will keep u posted here.
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| medocuk
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I had made promises last week to read up paeds and obs and gynae cases to discuss online and i havent done anything yet. Travelling and transition aren't the best of times.
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| medocuk
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I am going to read them today and write him an email.He must give up on me already.That is really bad.
Some one contacted me for step one studying.I feel motivated.This time there is no goofing around.
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| medocuk
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I have found several study partners for CSA.I am quite pleased.I would recommend USMLESBUDDIES.COM for all those looking for people. There people do respond.Here you really have to make friends.People don't seem to come forward.
But then this battle we fight alone.Not much you can do anyway.
I have to read those cases as A will be calling me tom.
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| medocuk
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I read a bit for CSA.. I have decided to start reading for step one by coming Monday.I really have to start...Then this journal will be maintained everyday. I will be honest this time about each day.Last time I know how much I struggled.This time I think with jram and others on board there will be lots more motivation around.
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| medocuk
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So I have started reading for step one.But I am way off mark.In motivation and effort.i keep thinking that since I have done so badly in step 2 and failed step one once I have no chance.I definitely wont if I dont do well on step one.What I need to realise is that what I do with step one is in my hands I can do what I should do now.Do my best is the name of the game and then leave the rest for god.I have to do my bit.
So I did 10 random questions to know where I stand.I got 5 right.I am way off mark here..There is no denying that.So where do I begin.What do I do? How should I plan this? How do I constantly motivate myself to get there.I need a good score now for me more than anything else.How do people motivate themselves.How does it happen for them.
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| medocuk
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I say you can totally do it.
Step one: make a time table.First allow maximum reading, followed by some reading some questions and then more questions less reading.
Step 2:Prioritise what to read when.Read actively.Make associations.
step3.Concentrate on why an answer is right or wrong.
Step4.Believe you can do this.
good luck to you...This was for me as much as for you..so I am going to copy paste my own words in my journal. 
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| medocuk
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Gogeta said on Risky's journal:
precontemplance-- you dont know why
contemplance-- you know why, but havent started yeat
prepareness--- you started and are getting ready to do it
action--- you are doing it
maintaince-- you keep yourself motivated and on the right track,this website is the best for that
relapse--- you are not in the mood to study, or just dont want to study,dont go there this forum is also good for that.
I found this so useful.Thanks Gogeta.
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| medocuk
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http://www.wikitestprep.org/
I found another question bank..
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| medocuk
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I haven't been through the whole site but this link has a lot of useful info..I hope it helps all.
http://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/USMLE_Step_One_Revie...
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| medocuk
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kaplan notes, tapes
Kaplan Q Book,850qs
Kaplan Q bank 2000 qs
NMS questions 4000
BSS questions 1000
Goljan notes and CD
First Aid.
My plan:
listen to 6 hours worth of Kaplan tapes each day.
2 hours of Goljan each day
Read what was covered and read corresponding FA each day.
Do 100 questions each day with revision of answers.
I am looking at 15-16 hours of study each day.I know this sound ambitious but I have to do it.Nothing should be allowed to come in my way.Nothing.
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| medocuk
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I have started with anatomy.I have already done one hour of Kaplan tapes.I have to do 5 more hours. It is 1:45 pm..
Should get done by 7pm with minimal breaks.
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| acintya
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Good luck Medocuk!!! You CAN do it!
I totally agree with your POA! Especially the steps 1-4. Very true.
I am in my first read of Kaplan notes with DVDs, and almost done with Physio. I will be starting with Anat soon.
So FOCUS FOCUS, we are all in the same boat! See you around!
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| medocuk
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Yesterday I listened to a few tapes.Realised that they were becoming a waste of time as I have heard these tapes before and really anatomy you have to know facts.There isnt a lot of understanding.I stopped the tapes and started to read.
I didn't do much all of yesterday and now I have nothing to write.Today should be a better day.
Today I plan to do 200 questions now.Complete reading Anat: Back, nervous system, thorax if I can stretch it may be even abdomen. Wish me luck.Seriously I need to focus just like Acintya says.
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| medocuk
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Hey Acintya..thanks for stopping by.
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| medocuk
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Yesterday was much better. I read all of histology after listening to the tapes and most of Organogensis.
I plan to complete Gross anatomy today so I can attack neuro anat tom.
I even did 50 questions from BSS. Crap performance. I am going to use pretest post test method that they have proposed.It is telling me where I am and that place aint pretty.
I have tied up with NW to discuss anat on saturday.I am happy to have found some one i can read with.
Others are welcome to join.
Today's plan:
COmplete Gross anatomy. Listen to goljan tapes. atleast 2 hours.Try 4.
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| medocuk
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I have confined to listening to Kaplans where I am weak.Like histology. I might listen to Neuro, but gross anatomy and organogenesis seems like a waste of time.I have been dragging Anatomy for so long.I am bored and I need a change in pace.I am way off target and I am very pissed with myself.I have found a study partner and today I have plumbers in the house doing up the bathrooms but I have to supervise.I am irritated.I have requested for discussion tomorrow I hope she relents.
I think I should remind myself of my target plan everyday hence I am going to make that my signature.
I am going to visit the forum 2 times a day.Morning and evening only.
Gogeta and Acintya are doing well and I wish them luck, I read them each day.They are very motivating.
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| medocuk
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I had made a plan on tuesday.My back log
30 hours of Kaplan, !0 hours of Goljan, 500 questions and no FA at all.
Yup I haven't been studying.Just pretending.I am going down the same crap loop.
I will so be paying for this.
Might I remind myself how much has gone into this exam
850+50+850+50+199+199+60+690+ = 2948 Dollars.
This is just for Step one exam. Seriously what the hell do I think I am doing.
There are so many awesome people out there.Studying so hard and making the effort to help other's around them.
Anyway this time I have paid for my exam and I don't intend letting myself down.
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| medocuk
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I will be back tonight letting you know what I have achieved all of today.It is a lovely 26th May.
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| acintya
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Heyy,
Just a small word of caution, I know you are trying to whip yourself into action, but the excess pressure might simply slow you down. Give yourself some credit sometime too. You are trying, yes you can try HARDER, but still bottom line is you ARE TRYING!!
So instead of beating yourself black and blue ( I always do that to myself), try to stop the mind from wandering into the nitty gritties of the past. Just try to gently (then forcefully  ) bring your mind back to the material in the book. As soon as you find yourself wandering or having negative thoughts switch the method of study... video to Goljan audio, or studying to doing questions, take a deep breath, take a walk, look at nature around you... just for a few minutes.... then get back to the books....
You will make it this time, just believe in yourself, KEEP STRIVING!!
Good luck!
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| medocuk
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Thank you, Acintya I so needed to hear that.I am trying.Yesterday was a better day.
I listened to 5 hours of Histology tapes.Read Kaplans.Today MW will call to discuss.
I heard 4hours of goljans.I read FA cardio and respiration.
I will be back tonight.
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| medocuk
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28th: Got invited out.Didn't read, but discussed histo, embryo and gross anatomy with MW.
Have left neuro anat for another day
29th: Genetics and molecular biology.Tapes and notes.
Am picking up.Am feeling better.but I have a huge back log.I will catch up.I need the strength and motivation.
I have 23 cds..rather than hours I think I should aim 2 cds a day..Lets see..Need to start goljan..Alright good night now.
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| acintya
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Hello there! you are doing well! Just wanted to see how you were as I did not see an entry in your journal!
Good Luck!
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| medocuk
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Hiya, Acintya thanks for stopping by and for the much needed push.
So yesterday I completed mol biology and genetics reading and did a few questions.
Since MW will be available tom for discussion I plan to do rest of biochemistry today and do all the questions from Kaplans.
Also I want to do atleast 2 hours of Goljan today and may be 5 bacteria. I should start micro.
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