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hope ur prep is going well even if its slow dont worry...just keep working hard as u have been and have faith in God...and you will touch the stars real soon insha allah
take care!
have fun!! and happy studying!!
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| step12006
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Thanks smarty for all the the encouragement and well wishes !
I just finished micro ,did q bank .It took so long for me to finish all the reading explanations etc .Starting pharma right now .The subject i probably dread the most .I hope next three days will fix that .I am not giving up on myself .I believe and know that God is there ,watching over all of us working harder ,toiling each day and He is going to give me strength and enormous determination to do well .For i owe it to myself and my loved ones to be strong ,successful and lead a purposeful life which is meant to serve the community .
My Dad ,who is a doctor as well,always says .'Never think of being a doctor just to make money.Think of the respect ,the honor you recieve and the satisfaction of having helped someone & the difference you make in their life '.
I have promised myself i am going to atleast try to be like him although i know it's hard .
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| smarty
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.......thanks for those lovely words in my journal step1......
AND about ur following in ur dad's footsteps.... well you are already doing thatby making life easier for ur family.....by encouraging me and making my day!!...SO dont worry the DAY isnt far...when u will be doing that CLINCALLY........haha
take care and best of luck WITH PHARMA....
nice subject BUTTTT, neeeds alot of ROTEFICATION!!
take care and thanx once again!
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| step12006
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This weekend wasn't really relaxing in any way .I was sad,upset about some personal issues that are still weighing heavy on me .I don't really know how people balance study ,family life and all the other stuff that comes with it .I still remember my student life .It's been 5 yrs since i graduated but that life was so beautiful ,full of fun and hard work as well .But very light hearted time when all you have to do is study and have fun in free time .Marriage ,on the other hand is full of work .Working to be a better Parent ,spouse .It's not about you anymore ever .Not a single minute when you just sit and think about what you want .It's much more complex .I still dream of those happy med school days full of competition ,energy,vibrance .But i guess that time will never be back.
I didn't really do much about pharma on weekend .i don't think i like weekends anymore .I am never able to accomplish and then i feel guilty like anything on mondays.
but today is a new day i should not carry on with the miseries of weekend .Maybe it's not a good thing to be too sensitive after all but it's embedded in me and i just can't help it.All i need is support which i do get from this forum .I read about people just like me and i feel like standing up and fighting back .
I miss my mom dad & family so much . I sometimes think coming to US wasn't such a good idea after all .
That's about it .No more tears over this .Back to work .Life goes on ....
So pharma it is .Hopefiully i will start q's tomorrow.
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Hello ,
I'm most of the time a silent observer, not because I don't want to join a forum, but only from the reason I’m lacking a time to write.
I just read your last post , it is just so nice but painful to see somebody in the same situation. You are not alone, just try to enjoy the weekends with your family , a child , in the future you will have a beautiful memories of the childhood of your little one. Don’t miss this period of his / her life ! As you enjoyed the study years in university, try to enjoy the parenthood also. The weekends are taking the precious time from you ( I know) , but just make a peace with it, realize that nothing you can do about it now, gather the energy for hard working week and enjoy the time with your family.
I'm alone here in US, with my baby ( 2 y. old ) without the husband (deployed in Iraq for long 14 months .) I used to be very upset about not taking the most of the weekends , but I'm here for my little one now, and just studying as much I can . I’m moving forward very slowly.
Keep going and you will do just fine . But dont forget about your love ones , because the life goes on very fast and the happy moments are ephemeral.
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| smarty
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hi step1....
take it easy friend.....there are times when we are frustrated...alot of things seem out of place...but it all gets fine with time.
take it easy. pray to God... He is always there for us.
take some time to relax....and dont worry about the minor hurdles that come across ur path. U HAVE TO OVERCOME THEM....and if U have to do it........THAN WHAT BETTER WAY TO DO IT THAN TO DO IT BRAVELY....!!!!
keep up the good work u are doing.
have faith in God allmighty.,..and all will be well. insha allah.(AMEEN).
hope things get better for u real soon friend!!
keep it upand keep smiling.........
just look up to the blessings of the Lord and then....these minor obstacles wont mean anything to u
take care and HAPPY STUDYING!!!!..........
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| smarty
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havent seen u in some time. hope things are fine for u step1.
dont take so much stress step1.
just have faith , dont worry and keep going...u are trying hard ...please dont lose hope. even if its tough..u know u can DO IT!! and u will do it insha allah.
u will succeed..its the perseverence that counts....and u have it...keep it up..and just have FAITH in urself and in GOD!!
"Formulate and stamp indelibly on your mind a mental picture of yourself as succeeding. Hold this picture tenaciously. Never permit it to fade. Your mind will seek to develop the picture...Do not build up obstacles in your imagination. "
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| step12006
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Thanks for beautiful words ,Smarty .I will write them down and keep them close 
I have been doing pharma .Getting a light grasp on it although it will need continuous work .Still working on it .Have to make my way through all the qbank explanations .
BB, you are such an inspiration .It must be hard doing it all alone .But yet so seem so undetered by obsyacles .It's great to hear from people like you .
There are so many people more stronger and diligent than i am .
Smarty,i come to prep journal every other day as i seem to have internet surfing issue .I can't stop reading all the posts so just trying to kick this habit .
Hope your studies are going great !
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| smarty
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dear step1
its good to hear from u always......well u r most welcome about the words i wrote...anyways..about ur surfing habit...well dear I DO the sameahaha so cant suggest u anything better. i come here everyday..and that forces me more...even when i am studying gynae..i feell shouldnt i just DO oneeeee bacteria today...my I love this forumhehe nice place u know. and about people saying that they go to library....well i CANT FOCUS ON ANYTHING IN THE LIBRARY.
until and unless I WANT TO...........so if i want to study I DONT NEED ANY LIBRARY....I WILL STUDY IN ANY CASE>....BUT IF I DONT FEEL LIKE STUDYING WELL.......NO ONE can force me to read a single word... so it all depends upon me. i feel its better to study something even a page in a day BUT with focus....if ur mind is going somewhere else and u are staring in ur book...well that doesnt help esp in my case.anyways....best of luck with pharma.......
take care and have fun!!!
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| step12006
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Actually Smarty, i can't concentrate in library either .just need to be alone with no distaction, period !
I tried libaries on weekends as my daughter is home but i can't do much there either .So ,today i start physio .Pharma was not a big success .Need work lots of work but i can't sit on it for rest of time .So i will go to physio and see how i do .Hopefully i shall be able do read some today and start q's tomorrow .weekends are not so promising so i would make peace with it as BB suggested and hope to finish physio by wednesday .
Happy studying !!
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| aisha2
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STEP12006, i hope u r doin great now , i think u got some very good advice from BB, i was goin through the same thing, and it was changin the way i was towards my husband and my son and it hit me my exam not my priority, my family comes first, and yes i also learned to make peace with it, now that im 3 wks from my EXAM , im still havin the same problem, wkends means no/near to nothing studies, laundry, grocery , and lots of time to my son n husband , not that i regret any of it , but i try to work as hard as possible durin the wk days and then on wkends i try to do as much as possible.
like last night i wanted to do some readin i tried to make my son go to sleep but he didnt , so i was on the floor , readin my pharma and my some sat on my bak huggin me and plyin with my hair ( more like pullin) i guess he is also gettin used to me studin all the time, and amazingly i could understand the things i was readin. ithink ur mind n body adapts accordingly , BOTTOM LINE KEEP TRYIN , KEEP GOIN , AND NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP
GOOD LUCK
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| smarty
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hope u are doing well with physio step1. dont worry abou family....they arent a burden..or an obstacle. they are a blessing.
so have fun with ur kid..and spend time with ur hubby and kid in the weekend. allah will help you insha allah. allah will help all u moms out therecoz HE has already given u people a BIG task of taking care of ur kid and family...hence HE alone will make things easier...insha allah.just have faith and KEEP GOING......!! best of luck!
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| step12006
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Thanks Aisha & Smarty.
Aisha ,it is a real inspiration to hear from such hardworking and diligent Mom like you .Your family is really lucky to have you .I wish you the none less than 99 in your test score .
Smarty ,thanks for wonderful piece of advice .I hope your study is going great and successful .
I am starting physio again from where i left on friday .I finished some work around the house on weekend and i don't feel as guilty about not studying as i used to .I loved spending time with my daughter .Actually took her out a castle park for rides and Sundae later .It was great to see her happy after a long time .Now i'm back on studies .Hope to do something today by God's grace .
Although sometimes a thought comes "Is it really possible to overcome this hurdle ." Right now ,it seems so big and enormous .I just hope i can do it .
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| smarty
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u will do it step 1just have faith in GOD and believe in urselfinsha allah U WILL DO IT and that too real sooN).
thanx for ur input in my journal step1.well since 2-3 days i havent studied anything.was busy in some packing etchave to go for a mnth 2 my relative's place.coz my parents will be going to US.
hence would be right back with u guys later with ALOT OF progress made INSHA ALLAH(AMEEN)
take care and keepsmiling.and yesss i am really glad that U had a wonderful time with ur daughter.
its really nice to hear this
well have fun and dont worry soooohehe U WILL CLEAR THIS EXAM WITH A REALL GOOD SCORE insha allah just have faith and KEEP GOING
best of luck ......and do read my signature....underneath when u need some inspirationhehe
have fun!!!
see u later then..........
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| step12006
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Thanks Smarty ! You have become a journal friend .
I changed some plans .Started with physio ended up reading system wise from FA .Pathology & anatomy as well .I will do rest of the q's from q bank which is phys.path ,neuroanatomy and histology .
today still reading through the FA .I am not refering to kaplan at this point as when i start reading that with Fa,it almost becomes impossible to finish either .
So plan is read through Fa today and then start q's .
today is 16 th aug .I think i should start a countdown to exam date as well .Exam is on 27th sept .So 42 days left .
Doesn't make me feel any better !
But i guess it's best to face it once for all .Started prep seriously around march .Till may ,i was studying about 5-6 hrs only .Now i have added few more hrs .This is the 6 th month .I should have been more diligent and persistent .But nothing lost yet .I have around 6 weeks .I should put in as much as i can .
May God help me be persistent for rest of the time .
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| step12006
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God works where there's an attitude of faith .
I am still doing path phys q's .Hopefully will finish by this end of this week .I feel pretty relaxed after the weekend .I am trying to develop a positive attitude towards the exam because the more i see it as a mountain ,the bigger it gets .
I just need to reward the little success that i achieve and probably stop complaining about how many q's i got wrong and focus on what went good about the day .I isn't that i always was this pessimistic .but the exam together with other responsibilities made it this way.But now i promise that i shall study as much as i can ,enjoy the moments when i am not or can't .God is great and He will show me the way .I shall do my part and He shall lead me through the rest.
Happy studying to everyone preparing .Hope we all find strength and courage in ourselves and each other to reach the heights we have dreamed of achieving !
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| drbin
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hi step 1 when i read thru ur mails feels like u r reflecting my own thoughts, i have my exam scheduled to Nov, started studying in March was so slow with a 2 yr old at home finished my 1st read in july, went for a holiday with family nw back to routine. got only 76 days infront of me and just started my 2nd read.got a lot of things to do and i do admit there r times when family seems a burden and misses our student life. but still just close ur book and think of something which u like, im sure it will be ur baby and hubby that u woulkd like to think off. they are PRECIOUS BURDENS
when i went to my home town this holidays, all my friends were doing residencies some even going to finish MDs.i found myself feeling sad and worthless. marriage is surely a sacrifice and motherhood is even more, u dont have any time to think of urselves,but today is a fact, cant live in past forever.y v have good memories of our childhood, bs our parents struggled at that time and gave us happy days,nw its our turn to give happy memories to our children. so we do have to accept the hurdles and try to meet the ends.
dont know whether my mail kindled ur spirit or disappointed u....i just mentioned the facts,or atleast wrote what goes on in my mind bs right at this same moment im also struggling to study with my baby sitting in my lap(no day care, no school and no baby sitter) doing all naughty things possible for her, all the kitchen left unclean after cooking in the morning and hurrily packing lunch for hubby,bed not made,house with toys scattered everywhere.but i just take my eyes off all other things and stare at my books so that only my D day is in my mind.earlier i used to worry about my house and family only but nw i got to do this exam or i will remain a house wife all my life which is definitely not the thing i want to do with my life.
so whenever i feel down and alone i just think of aisha, mitty,vallia and so many mothers in this forum, they are all working harder than me with my similar conditions.so lets just work hard for these 2 or 3 months more and let God do the rest
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| step12006
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Drbin ,i agree with you .We did have our times .Now it is the time for our kids and we have to work hard to make their future brighter .
You are a very hardworking mom and i'm amazed that you can do it all without babysitter .
I had tried that last year ,finished first read and got totally burnt out .I gave up then but picked up around march this year .
I am sure your patience and hard work will pay off very soon !
Well today i brought the kaplan online q bank .Lately i was doing some cd for q bank but thought i shouldn't take any risk of q's not being as HY etc .
Lets see how it works out.
I will just keep doing q's and read weak topics for now .
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| kooqi
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hi drbin and step12006,
i read both of your last posts and find it too close to me really i have beend oing and stoping and redoing again all my stuies similar to you guys just because of my kidNo wonder we are blessed to have kid but some time they seem to be hurdles .But ofcourse we should always remeber the way our parents did and now its our turn and hopefully we will do it
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| step12006
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Hi Kooqi,
Yes,we will do it .No matter how hard it gets . we should remember to keep on going and never loose hope ,EVER.
Tough times never last but tough people do .
So lets just keep on going and praying to God for He has brought us to this path for a reason .
Still doing q's and trying to be not dissapointed with how many of them are wrong .
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| step12006
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Today i did speed biochem review and 50 q's .62%.Somehow score didn't improve much .Last time was 58%.God ,this will take much more prep than i anticipated.
Tomorrow i'm moving to genetics .Lets see what happens .Just trying not to be run down by this score.
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| aisha2
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good luck step12006, i think even 1% improvement is an improvment, so dont feel bad about it , just keep goin , as tolito said its mostly the last couple of wks when u make most of the improvments in ur scores.
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| step12006
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Thanks for encouragement ,aisha2.I did genetics today .All the mistakes were silly calculations and a pedigree .Score did improve from last time but i did remember many q's so it might be a bit inflated .
Tomorrow is behaviour & biostats . I hate calculations .Never liked maths that is why ended up in medicine only to solve more calculations !
I am thinking of postponing exam .Although i understand it won't necessarily mean higher score but right now my prep is pretty shaky and sept 27 seems like tomorrow .
Let's see .I will think about it
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| step12006
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So i did behaviour yesterday .Biostat was the problem zone but i am going to work on it .Can't let silly q's run me down ...
Today i'm off to micro .Planning to do quick review and then move to q's in evening .Just hoping to improve the score today .
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I started q's of micro today .I am not doing so well in terms of improving the score .Let's see further .Still going to continue q's and then move to reading immuno .
best of luck to all studying
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