motivated2
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will finish Part 1 of KLN today. Hope to be done by midnite.
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| motivated2
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Gosh, nothing sticks to my brain...
My hubs who's been observing my study habits & my resources advised that I should stick to only few high yield resources. He keeps on telling me to give my best shot on these materials. I think he's right... I have been searching for answers on how to get the best in my review & w/ few attempts, on my own, I haven't succeeded. So now I am setting my Kaplan aside & will stick to FA, step up/ secrets,
BRS Path, pretest Biochem & Patho physio, Qbank & Q Book. I can't retain from Kaplan. I have to rely on what works for me. Finally, I listened to my hubs & I WILL read these materials til my head hurts, I will master these materials then do NBME & see what happens. He said too much review or reviewing for a looong time does not work, you tend to forget things. He said I should study 3 hrs in the am, 3 hrs in the pm & 4 hrs in the evening, a total of 8-10 hrs of rereading & rereading everyday for 2-3 mos. would land me to finally pass mytest. You see, this is my 3rd attempt & there was a time that I already read Kaplan but everytime I study again, I usually start fr the bottom again bec. everytime I fail i tend to get depressed, procrastinate, unmotivated.. all the negative things comes. i said my passing of mle would be one of the biggest if not my huge, super achievement in my life & I am still waiting for it.
Everyone of us has moments, in this forum, I noticed that we all have one thing in common, lack of focus, procrastination but we forget that we were bright students and we still are. I am getting older.. my kids are growing up soo fast & I want them to be proud of me too as I am always telling them how proud I am for all those years that they've been getting straight A's at school. See folks, I produced straight A kids but I can't help myself pass this darn exam. I study, pray, study pray but my efforts are not enough. I ask myself what else, what else sould I do. Maybe just give up & change career. That might not be an option right now.. but I know I know...
Whoever's reading my post , sorry but this is one of my moments.. I am soo confused w/ what to do next. My career is not going anywhere.. My hubs pushing me & most of the time I take it as an insult & he said he does not mean anything. He's a practicing MD & before everytime he tells me something I don't listen. he's been telling me to master FA I did not listen. Well he got me now.. I will master a book , do nbme & go on if I got a good score. He did not use nbme before.. he just used FA,& lots of q's. He said '''it's not because I am smarter but because I take my exams seriuosly!!' I do take my exams seriously , I study, & study & study but I think my efforts are not still enough.
There you go.. my thoughts.. my feelings.. should i click submit so you could read it??? we'll see.
maybe someone out there has same situation.. sometimes I would say well maybe its not my time yet or my only obligation in this world is just for my family.
One other thing, my hubs said I am deteriorating, he said where's the old you? He's saying that I have all the potential & I'm wasting it. Well this time I took it seriously.. this time I should listen.
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| Nan
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I asked myself why i wanted to do it and how bad I wanted it, and wrote the reasons on a piece of paper and posted it on the refrigerator. I read it aloud everyday. it gives me the motivation I need.
Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe
You can do it!
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| unique1
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Hi motivate 2,
I am an old grad and have just started my prep. It is very hard to concentrate on books after such a long gap. When I started , I thought that I was motivated enough and will spend every moment of my time ,that I spare from my kids , on my studies but I often find myself spending time on things which have nothing to do with mle. I find every excuse to not study. Then I get very disappointed with myself.
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| unique1
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Hi motivate 2,
I am an old grad and have just started my prep. It is very hard to concentrate on books after such a long gap. When I started , I thought that I was motivated enough and will spend every moment of my time ,that I spare from my kids , on my studies but I often find myself spending time on things which have nothing to do with mle. I find every excuse to not study. Then I get very disappointed with myself.
But I think , this kind of escapism and the mood swings are very normal and we should forgive ourselves for these to some extent. USMLE is not only a test of your knowledge but also of perseverance. So be patient , keep working hard and have faith . You will succeed one day. All my prayers are with you.
In this forum , someone with the name 'askdoc ' had posted very good analysis of usmle prep. His posts might help you.
Be positive and keep working on making your dream come ture. All the best. 
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| drbin
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oh dear dont u ever feel this discouraged, come on cheer up lady there r lots of us in this forum preparing for this exam some taking it some retaking.... so just u be sure that u r not an alien in this USMLE world. see we are all in similar or almost similar situations like u, for some of us passing USMLE means everything in life bs otherwise u would have to live another life totally different from what u have aimed for and hardworked for all those long 6 yrs in med school or even long if u r a post grad, we were all almost same during our college days, reading and reading,we had failures there as well but were u discouraged at that time? if u were u would never have completed it.....
but we all managed it well, came out of it, were practising doctors once. just bs u r little more aged nw with few other responsibilities,u shouldnt let go of all that spirit buried inside u. u never deteriorate unless u have Alzheimers....only thing is u lack that spirit to recover the vigour inside u... so just work on ur confidence, read FA just hw many times u can(dont bother Kaplan if u read it already a few times) and do as many Qs as is possible. Remember u only need some more brushing up and a lot of confidence.
then do u believe in destiny.... we can only work hard with all our might and vision to change our destiny, but still it doesnt change means God has some totally different plans for us and giving in for that divine decision would be perhaps more fulfilling than whatever career we wanted to pursue.... so go on toiling with heart set on the target and u will surely win
pls read askdocs posts. u really need them this moment
GL friend
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| motivated2
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Oh dear!
Thanks nan, unique1 & drbin.. I am soo dramatic at this moment.. .. See I know I can rely mostly to you guys who are in same study situation.
Yes.. i think it's bec. of this long gap my confidence is falling... I am just keeping myself motivated bec of my kids. One day, I;'ll rise & be my own positve person again..
When I went to church this am, one of the song lines says... Faith keeps you alive..
Thanks for your encouraging words..
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| tolito
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yes motivated, faith keeps you alive.
i had a similar problem with retaining information from kaplan. it was initially dreadful for me. i struggled with it for the first 2 months before i stumbled on this forum and i got good advise. i needed to use mainline texts and not kaplan cos i had been away for too long. kaplan is good for those who are recent graduates but for old graduates, you need to go back to basics. i will not advise just FA cos it is inadequate. you need to have a good grasp of the details in the small picture in order to be able to place it in the big picture. opposit to a jigsaw puzzle. so go back to the basics and be thorough. take your time. when you go back to kaplan, it will be like an elementary book. i have been there and that is exactly what happende to me. i took NBME and i scored 540. i had to stop twice cos i was not confident of my answers but when i read kaplan over, it was smooth sailing when i continued the test. after every section you read, take the review questions at the end of kaplan or qbank or qbook. that will help you to assess your level of assimilation. take a look at askdoc's posting. it may help you .
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/34492
i wish you all the best.
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| motivated2
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Thanks a lot tolito. You've always been so helpful. GL w/ u & WOW your nbme score is great!!! If I get that score I will take the test right away.
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