wey2002
Forum Senior
Topics: 4
Posts: 123
|
I have taken NBME3, got a 87.
I will take off from next week, thank my boss to give me 3 wks off.
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
GL wey!
i did not read a line yesterday .  was just depressed. this exam is taking a heavy toll on me. the sheer importance of it is such a big burden. the need to excel. i wish i could believe in myself that i can score 99 and then i wouldnt be under any tension... but from all indications at the moment, i will only make a bare pass. that is no good for an IMG.
so today, i start with a heavy heart but i wait on God to strengthen me and cheer me up and encourage me and give me confidence that i can do it. that i can finish strong. so i conclude immuno like i was meant to do yesterday.
TODAY'S MOTTO
DAVID KILLED GOLIATH, I SHALL KILL THE GIANT 'USMLE' WITH GOD ON MY SIDE
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| 26malik
Forum Guru
Topics: 39
Posts: 429
|
Yes tolito
we can only kill this deamon by God on our side.Lets Pray for strength and courage. 
___________________
There is always hope
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
yes we need God to be in our corners.
today has progressed fine enough going by teh way i have been feeling lately. did more questions. there are a lot of old unresolved questions in immuno. malik you did start one there with type 1 or 2 hypersensitivity and worms. check out my post there.
did nto achieve my goal today but i am not worried. i have decided that i will remove the tension of exam dates from my mind and just continue at this pace. i will evaluate myself in a month and then decide on when to take the exam. part of the pressure is my desire to match next year so my 'life' can 'start' but who knows what God has in store for us??? who knows.
plus side, if i do not plan to match next year
1. i get more time to study intensely .. if i continue at this pace
2. i get more time in an observership
3. i can actually change my job and get full time position in a hospital (of course i wont be paid) but it would add to my american experience
4. last but not least, i take a shot at having babies. when i read about the babies we are expecting on the forum, i sometimes get a bit down and wish it were me. so if i get pregnant later this year, i will have time for my babies..hoping for twins...when they arrive early next year. so they will be over a year old when i start residency.
sounds good??? or is this defense mechanism??????? what do ya think?
so NO MORE COUNTDOWN but COUNT UP.
DAY 1 ENDED.
THANK YOU LORD.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| mitty
Forum Guru
Topics: 52
Posts: 376
|
Hello tolito
You have this gift.what ever you write in your journal is soothing.You will do just great.Continue the hard work.
___________________
He will make it happen.
|
| 26malik
Forum Guru
Topics: 39
Posts: 429
|
hi
i posted this quote in my journal. i hope it will help.
The time is now, the place is here. Stay in the present. You can do nothing to change the past, and the future will never come exactly as you plan or hope for. Dan Millman
dono what u say is sound or defence mech. But i like your idea of COUNTING UP. its positive. GL
___________________
There is always hope
|
| female doc ny
Forum Senior
Topics: 15
Posts: 169
|
it seems your always have energy mind sharing some of it espacially your optimisism good luck and dont worry god has his plans for u and they will come be they residency or a baby or both i know it makes u scared but dont worry that god has given us hardships but solutions also we jsut have to look for them good luck
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
thanks for your words of encouragement. my eyes just welled up with tears. here i sit in front of my computer and i can hear voices talking to me. i can feel the warm embrace and the compassion of 'unseen' friends. thank you so much. mitty, i thank God that in my various states of mind, i have been a source of encouragement to others. yes malik, the time is now and present. we must be positive. femaledoc, i am such a weakling, i am just acting like a yo-yo. up today, down tomorrow. you need more steady energy, surely!!
i will be encouraged and i will just wait on the Lord to unfold His plans for my life. i will accept my lot and i will be happy and rejoice in the Lord.
so today, i conclude for the last time immunology so i can move on with pathology. i am actally enjoying the stuff i am reading. it makes me have confidence in myself that when i start to work again as a doctor, i will be a better one than before. and believe it when i say my patients and nurses adored me and had such great confidence in me.
i'll tell you my dream. i dreamt i was in canada with a friend (in real life, she moved to canada with her husband) and there was this guy, a student, begging me for money, $1300. i told him that he should go look for any job rather than be stuck up that he was a medical student and so it was beneath him to work as a waiter. i told him my experience in america while i was waiting for certification and that i worked in hospitals even without pay. anyway, i must have had lots of money cos i told him to come over later that day to collect it. i was giving him money and it was not a loan. may i reach that situation once again in my life. AMEN.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
TODAY'S MOTTO
WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS, AND WHO CAN SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| wey2002
Forum Senior
Topics: 4
Posts: 123
|
Well. I guess it is better to do it good than to do it rush, but that is what I think.
P.S i like to type it in everytime to remind myself what I am here studying for.
Will do good!
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
oh yes wey it is better to do it good than rush it. thanks for your vote!!! i like your style. writing in will do good as a reminder.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
today has ended on a positive note. i 'finished' immunology but i need to go over the genetic dis and the deficiency states in more detail than i have in kaplan and mmi. i did qbank and scored a perfect average mark ..55%. i was happy that most of the questions i missed were also missed by at least 70% of students but i am unhappy because i missed half of them from 'lack of respect' for immunology. one needs to take good care while reading the question so as nto to be deceived by the answers.
tomorrow, i continue path after revising today's stuff.
COUNT-UP: DAY 2 ENDED.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| Serenity
Forum Senior
Topics: 4
Posts: 77
|
hi tolito, thanks for dropping by my journal, i put in a little poem that you may want to read! check it out
|
| hodgkins
Forum Elite
Topics: 3
Posts: 293
|
tolito...how are you doing? Thank u for your encoraging words for me, I see your exams date being stretched little bit, yes, as wey said its better not to rush..give a the very best shot all u can..so there should be no regrets later..
tolito..tell u something, God is always awesome in His decision for us, because He likes us much more than ourselves..He certainly wants the life of ours to be as beautiful as it could be..
remember, whatever we may go thru here, each tears of yours draw you more closer to the creator...this is the Ultimate Goal of all our lives..right..
so once we recognise this..everything is beautiful after..much beautiful therafter..so you are,
God is listening you all your supplications..one day there will be a Good surprise..when you least expect there He is..wishing you lots of baby dust..and great success in your career..All the best
___________________
WE CAN DO IT..!!!
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
thanks my friends for your encouraging words. i keep on saying, what will i do without you. i will check out the poem, serenity. i will wait on the Lord and Bless His Holy name. thanks hodgkins for reminding me of His great love for us.
today, i continue. first i revise immuno and then qbank and then on to path. God help me achieve my goal for the day.
TODAY'S MOTTO:
I BOAST OF THE NAME OF THE LORD
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| cool_guyp4u
Forum Elite
Topics: 12
Posts: 124
|
Tolito,
I have not read your journo for a while. The change that I see from last time is that looks like you have decided not to go for 2007 match! I started my prep in March and I curse myself for not starting to prepare for step 1 2 months earlier. I am missing 2007 match because of that. Another important thing to note is many of my friends (Imgs) have matched 2nd time and not 1st time even if they completed the requirements the 1st time.
You seem depressed and looks like you are backing away - from your postponing your match. There is nothing to worry. Even if you complete step1 by July, you can try for 2007 match.
Come on, you can do it!
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
thanks coolguy, trouble is with just step 1 results for an 'old' IMG, the chances are slim. i am worried that if i take step 1 in july and step 2 in oct i may not make it. but i am trucking on all the same. the only difference is when i decided to put aside the tension of matching for 2007, a great big burden was lifted off and i am now studying just so i can make the best rather than so i can make the quickest time to exam.
today, i did nto achieve my target, i took a biiiiig detour. first, i did review questions in mmi to see where i stand and the intention was to revise immuno. hey guess what, i scored 65%. pas mal cos it tested both micro and immuno. i failed the micro section. see, there are some recurring decimals i noted. if i would have paid better attention to them the first time, i would be better off. these are diseases like rocky mount, tb, encapsulated org, virulence factors, MOA adn the likes. so although i read them the first time, i decided to re-read them and know them cold. so here is my list (not exhaustive as i keep adding to it)
mycob tb, mycob lep, rickettsiae family, chlamydia, yersinia, franciscella, brucella, borellia borg (lyme dis),salmonella, viruses and moa and replication, and antiviral, protozoa like entamoeba, trich, ...
concepts like gp vs gn cell memb, technic of gram staining, oxidase pos, optochin sens, ferm vs non ferm, hemolytic, catalase pos, coagulase pos, agar cultures, hyphae and branches, hiv and disease and those funny spores...
the other thing i am doing is i am integrating these diseases with the various systems they affect particularly the immunology of them. eg CMI for facultative intracellular org vis a vis tests like ppd, weil felix tests for rickettsia, ind immunofluor for spirochetes. now i can understand why it is IgG or IgM!!!. lyme dis may cause bell's palsy etc etc. it is actually exciting for me to find out that i know so much. hey big head, go do some more qbank and score a low 55% and that should shrink my head some. anyway, i am feeling so good about my studies now. i believe that in a month, i will be spitting hot.
COUNT-UP DAY 3 ENDED.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| wey2002
Forum Senior
Topics: 4
Posts: 123
|
Keep it going!
Will do good!
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
thanks wey. today another day. i am starting late at 9pm. no worries, will do as much as i can. i have been watching NBA for the past 2hrs. my 'boys' - phoenix suns are playing.
i continue with my focussed or directed revision while awaiting robbins review.
TODAY'S MOTTO
FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT. COUNT IT ALL JOY
Edited by tolito on 05/08/06 - 10:09 PM
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| sachida
Forum Guru
Topics: 57
Posts: 532
|
Tolito, thats for wishes for my score. Here is my advice: do all the basics and stick to kaplan material-it is more then enough. You dont need goljan 100 pages and stuff just do brs and you will have a great score. since you are not going soon for exam now-make practice of reading material as if they were questions. do mol bio and genetics mechanisms thoroughly- i mean it was intense on my exam. remember mode of inheretence for EACH of disease it will help a lot. good luck with prep
___________________
93/91, CS passed, USCE 1 year, PhD (USA), Publications 2, Graduate 1999. Dont need visa
|
| 26malik
Forum Guru
Topics: 39
Posts: 429
|
hi. its good to see that u are doing great now that the pressure is less. these topics u mentioned are really very confusing. you are right. the only way to remember them is to integrate them with other subjects, like immuno or patho.
keep up the good work.
___________________
There is always hope
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
thanks for your advise sacchida. i will surely keep it in mind while studying. i do pray for good success for yu cos you deserve it.
malik, that was a good mail you sent to me. it was thought provoking. unfortunately, i do not have the weblink otherwise, iwould post it here.
see, the main jist was what is your motivating factor for this exam? usually it is the motivating factors that keep us going when things are hard. the author,Steven R. Daugherty, enumerated some motivating factors and their negative sides.
1. Getting the Score
The danger here, however, is that focusing on the score will blind you to what you need to do to get there. you lose sight of all but your goal and miss the pleasures of life etc. in your singlemindedness
2: Getting the Knowledge
However, students driven by their own quest for knowledge and their own excitement at emerging insights are in danger of losing sight of the specific requirements of the USMLE. so you know a lot but you do not pass!!!
3: Avoiding Failure
the fear of failure becomes so great that we give up and do not even try.
4: Avoiding looking or feeling stupid
It can encourage us to lie to others and to ourselves. To avoid the appearance of being stupid, we do not talk in class.
ok so did you take the test??? i found out that at the beginning of my prep, my motive were #1 and 2. #1 led to me neglecting my hubby which caused some friction. #2 led me to read more than neccessary for the exam and up till last week, i still had problems with #2 cos i was looking for big robins. thank God for friends who always show me the way.
so where am i today? i am still motivated by having great scores and also by my quest for knowledge but i will do all in the light of the requirements for this exam while carrying my family along.
good new, i scored 60% in immuno and average is 56%. so i am moving up!!! i saw my mistakes. will do better.
TODAY'S MOTTO
NO FEARS.
DAY 5 ENDED
Edited by tolito on 05/10/06 - 04:24 AM
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
today is a new day and it hasnt started too well cos i woke up late and it is now 2pm and i am yet to get into the groove of studying.
yesterday was a roller coaster. i had a subject for my experiment, and went to a clinic to 'shadow' a doctor. that made me even more determined to sit my exams and passing excellently.
so today, i ' conclude' once again, immunology from robins. then i continue with path. i saw this site at bartek's diary http://faculty.css.edu/gcizadlo/. it has a whole bunch of stuff in it. i startedwith the pathophysiology. it sounded encouraging cos he told his students not to bother with a textbook. hmm so i will conclude that the lectures are conclusve?? i will give it a try.
TODAY'S MOTTO
HE WILL POUR OUT HIS OIL OF GLADNESS ON US THIS YEAR.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| tolito
Forum Fanatic
Topics: 119
Posts: 2,174
|
ok today went fine. revised all qbank questions on immuno (90). and studied around them. did some more q 20 after. and scored 95%!!!! of course. after such extensive revision and i had 9 repeat q so actually i got 10 correct out of 11. so all is still good cos i missed only one new question. God put a seal in in the sieve we have as brains so all the good stuff i have learnt does not 'sieve' away.
feel so good so tomorrow i continue with path but i will reread inflammation cos all the stuff about adressins, selectins, icam and ugo, LFA and ufo etc etc. are driving me crazy,,,
COUNT UP: DAY 7.
___________________
It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
|
| 26malik
Forum Guru
Topics: 39
Posts: 429
|
its so good to see you doing so well. keep up the good work.
___________________
There is always hope
|
|
| |
| | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | |
