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hey hodgkins,
its nice to see your post after such a long time ........u are my inspiration ..........with sooooo much happening , house , baby , in laws , and still that desire in your heart to keep plodding on........u really inspire me .......don't worry , i know anytime you get back to your books , god will help you out thro" ...yeah it'll be a bigg decision to decide when to come back to books after you have your baby but then god will guide you ..........u are a brave girl and god is there with you at every step......don't worry
god bless you!!
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| seems
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hey hodjkin
u r doing great.
u can do it . just relax and make an achievable target wzout stressing ur slef out . do not take tension and stress, whatever u can read easily,and retain easily just do it and read tahat much only . worrying and stress will only waste the little time u have.
so dunt panick ,ALLAH will 4 sure help u wz this and everything else,u just have to have faith in HIM,and do what u can.
make a scedual and slowly start following it .u will study ,it ll be slow but better not studying anything .
hope to see u soon in action 
u take care
and good luck
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| hodgkins
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Dear friends...!!
I need all your humble prayers...as I requested prayers from my other friends and family, I know this cyber friends of whom I even dont know personally,but you all have been a great source of comfort in my past studying days, hence as I am going thru this tough time..with all my tears in my heart I am requesting your most humble prayers...!!
It is been very hard for me to digest..My dear most Father who resides in India passed 2 days ago..it was all of a sudden..
I cant evn travel at this stage of pregnancy ..my due date being just another 6 weeks..
This is the worst part I can ever imagine...all these days I was getting anxious of labour pain..now I am not scared of anything..
Friends please pray for myself , my baby and my family...especially in this blessed month of Ramadhan..Jazakallah.
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| unique1
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Dear hodgkins , I am very sorry to hear this. This is Allah's will . Rest assured that your father is in a better place InshaAllah. He passed away in this blessed month. May Allah grant him high place in heaven and grant you strength to bear the grief. Aamin.
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dear hodgkin i feel so sorry about your loss i know how you are feeling right now i've been through this pain 4 years ago Allah will give you strength & place your dad in heaven ameen. what you can do just prey for him & read holy book as often as you can for him it will give you strength & peace for your mind & heart.
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| fruity
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its really sad to hear that , may god grant u the strength to bear the loss , u are in our prayers ...........i know its terribly hard but you have to be strong .......we will all be praying for u .
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| drbin
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im terribly sorry for u my dear friend....... may Lord let his soul rest in peace. hope ur baby is fine.it is so stressful indeed this period of preg and the grief is so hard,pls be strong, god will surely help u...
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dear hodgkins, sorry about your dad. may God give you the grace to go thro this period of mourning. may He strengthen you in all your ways.
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dear hodgkins,
our condolences and all moral strenght are with you.ya we are cyber friends but thoughts and wishes travel big boundaries.
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Dear All..
Thankyou so much for your kind words and prayers..!! It is hard, very hard, seems never the life can be the same for me without my beloved father..but, sametime I hold his dreams for myself, as my goal to achieve and bring all his dreams he dreamt for me to be true. God willing!!
May God give me the strength to channelise all my emotions to achieve the goal I am desired for!!
LIFE IS NEW AGAIN...
My dear friends..
Gald to convey that,by God's grace I was bestowed a cute little one, the baby boy, on Dec 5th..just 15days old now, has opened up a new life for all of us at home..the tears still in the hearts due to my dad departure, welled up again with a smile on everybody's face, at home..!!
MY JOURNEY HAS TO BEGIN AGAIN...
Dont know what I am gonno do..how I am gonno start again..but the sleepless nights I am spending nowadays busy feeding every 2 to 3 hrs..makes me awake and alert, for his cry, gone are the days my one stretch of sleep for the whole day..: (
Well, he is cute one as I feed him he sleeps off..my dear husband is always there beside me sharing everything, my inlaws are gonno leave in Jan 15th..so then I am all alone..so many things I have already learnt..to manage doing things all alone..surprise it do not seem that hard thou..but still lots to see further..!!
Anyway, I am holding my First Aid..as he sleeps on my lap..just turning few pages to refresh my memory how much I remember..I know its gonno be hard, but still just want to explore how hard it can be, physical tierdness never mind, but mentally I feel strong and reknewed than ever before..I want to do it..
Please if anybody have any tips for me , please help..it may take another full stretch of 6 months I know, but earlier the better, atleast one page a day can make me feel I am still rowing the boat..
Wish me luck dear friends..I AM HERE AGAIN..AND BELIEVE WE CAN DO IT!!
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| ellen
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hi friend,first of all congrats u have now angel with u.ur little one ...i dont know i just read ur jornel i m new here so but one thing similar i m mom busy mom....but i think we all can do it ...thats why we choose as mom...have extra strenght and power gifted by GOD...so i think u need some rest dont take any tension bcz now ur body need time ......then u start with full power u feel better....god 'll help u.again engoy ur little one...
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Thank u ellen..yes,during day time I sleep well when he is sleeping ..its the night time, I am thinking off..just to occupy my unwanted thoughts and emotions in this postpartum period..
yes u r right..wow I am a mom now I just cant believe it..,yes we all should be able to do it then right God willing will see!!
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Great difficulty
Are you encountering difficult challenges? That means you're ready for great things.
Are the problems becoming more critical, complicated and demanding? That puts you in a position to make an enormous positive difference.
Take a step back, take a deep breath, and consider it an opportunity. For that's exactly what it is. The challenges that come your way are precisely the ones you are now able to handle.
If they're becoming tougher, that means you have become stronger. You've grown so much that you're ready to move to a higher level now. Take the opportunity to do so.
For in great difficulty is great value, right in front of your eyes, begging to be created. Choose now to be the one who creates it. -- Ralph Marston http://greatday.com/motivate/061214.html
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| unique1
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Welcome back Hodgkins
Congratulations on being a mom.
That's what life is.......grief and happiness go hand in hand here.
Keep praying for your dad and at the same time enjoy your cute little angel.
It is good that you came back to books but please do not overburden yourself. You need to take good care of yourself . Sleep well and eat healthy.
Wish you all the best 
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| drbin
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Hi friend, r u on track? havent heard anything from u for a long time..... is evrything ok
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| hodgkins
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yeah...here it is my beloved journal, I had to look couple of times to confirm its mine..and it was mine once upon a time..
Dear drbin..thankyou so much for remembering me..how are you? Did u take your exams?
I indeed browse this forum here n there, especially exam experience, but I see this journal world is full of new comers..thought of sarting a new one..pleading for help..
I feel so lonely..and have lost myself in my own world of taking care of baby all by myself since he is of 40days old, because my inlaws have to leave by then. Oh my this is one thing which drained all my energy..with all sleepless nights and my studies are like I can just only dream off..
Now the time has passed my little one, he is of 6 months old now..here n there I get sometime to browse this forum , to feel myself ..yeah..i have to give my exam yet...but still other than that, nothing happens..have been scanning few pages of molicular biology I started with a month ago..
I really really need help..I need help any mother who is like me taking care of kid of 6 months old, managing, household works ,cooking..all alone through out the week..only in the weekend my husband is here..to help!!
Is there anybody in my boat..? May be I should post this in a support forum or study partners..i guess!!
Good luck and best wishes to everybody here..!!
Note:drbin..I live here with same contact number, call me whenever u get a chance..thanks again for remembering me
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Hi Hodkins ,
Nice to see you again after a long time.
Remember what your journal's name tells us all ??? "We Can Do It" no matter what our circumstances are !!!!!!!
There are many mothers here , old and new , in your shoes or may be some in tighter than yours ...... You will get all the support and encouragement you need. Keep going !!! Sooner or later , you will be there . Wish you all the best .
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| hodgkins
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Thankyou so much for your kind and encouraging words Unique1.I am feeling homely when I see the person whom I know here...!!How are you doing ? How is ur studies going on?
Trying to push myself to sit in front of the computer, to browse this forum...otherwise I am no heard anywhere..in this little world of mine.
I think ..this is the only place I have to boost my spirit, strength and stamina to beat this exam...
Just realised that my studies are so different than how it used to be before..dont know, how will I even understand what I read now..my weakness is my son, 24 hrs is with him..kind of getting difficult to focus on anything other than him..when he is with me all the time.
Ha..what life it is..this I used to feel this way..kind off when I was newly married..!!
Well..well..then that was excuse I feel now..may be in future, this all will pass and I do not want to regret of not passing this exam..
I want to do it..Oh God please help me how should I tune myself into this again..I just find myself standing in front of the big ocean, knowing nothing how to sail through this..
Okie..what I am gonno do today?? My husband left early morning flight today..can I keep any goal and achieve myself something??
What should I do ? How should I start even?....
My son got up..willl be back..!!
Note: Guys,I am jsut venting out here, whoever reads this..thankyou for your precious time and good luck to all!!
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Hi hodgkins ,
No problem , that is why we all come to this forum. To say what we want to say and to hear what others have to say .
I am posting the link of our study group. I have posted my progress so far here . There are many mothers and working ladies in this group ( a couple of dads and new grads too ) who have a common dream of conquering this fight . Mytime is good at setting the goals and pushing all of us to achieve it ( and ofcourse in whipping as and when needed  ). You are welcome to join us if you like.
http://www.prep4usmle.com/forum/thread/35166/135
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Thankyou Unique1...yes I did looked at your group..amazing, so many people..and wow 132 pages...in the above mentioned link..thats awesome!!
the spirit of this forum really rocks...hence no matter what for whatever reason even with many breaks in my studies I keep turning around again and again for teh help..
well, after incubating my thoughts seriously for couple of days..i have come to some conclusions
1. No matter what..I should hold on to the rope of my faith in God, and proceede with my studies with teh help of Almighty
2.start with DVDs and goljan..keep hanging ..until my innerself get tuned to my goals and dreams, and make my studies as a part and parcel of my daily routines of cooking, cleaning, baby..husband..!!
3.keep small targets..finish it on daily basis..same time have a big picture when I think I can finish..have to work on it in my Xcel..
4.drop few lines in my journal what I did..even I could not do anything...say it aloud .."I did not do anything"
5. take NBME , when? will figure out after chalking out my plans..
6. Keep saying with my little one.." We can do it..We should do it..and We will do it"
For now: Its late..1:30am..will listen to goljan audios..until I feel sleepy..or until my son wakes up for the next feed..
will start with : Cell injury..
tomorrow read Goljan Cell injury...and solve Robbins questions..
will see if this works..
God plaese help me..I need you and you are the only one who can bring back all my energy and spirit of studies , which I think I have lost in these past days..sametime I did enjoyed my little one without any secondary thoughts..but now its time for me to realise my responsibility..please help me oh God..
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Purposeful power of persistance
Do something once, and you learn how it's done. Do it again
and you begin to build some real skill.
Repeat the action a third time, and suddenly you've gained
some confidence. The fourth time around, you'll start
finding ways to be much more effective.
There are plenty of people who take action and yet never
seem to achieve. That's because they give up after only one
or two attempts.
Persistence is the reliable path to whatever it is you seek.
Because persistence compels you to fully understand why you
have chosen to achieve your objective.
When you solidly connect to the reason why, no mere obstacle
can stop you. Act, and act, and act again, and you'll feel
the purposeful power of persistence start to take hold.
Persistence is how you prove to yourself that there is a
sincere purpose in what you seek. Persist, and you do indeed
make it real.
-- Ralph Marston
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all the best friends..!!
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Feeling so different after reading drmum;s journal today..!!
Realised I was just pitying myself all these days, getting pampered by my husband, inlaws and calling my mom every other day hearing her sympathetic words...remembering my father so on!!Well..I ahve to do it how muchever I can..right now..well said drmum, you never know what may come up tomorrow..
Finished cell inury audios..was able to read one page from goljan..gonno say prayers now..and start finishing my cell injury for today.
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could not finish cell injury...somehow lost track and started scanning all my previous notes, and nothing I studied otther than going thru some pages of my notes here n there
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No problem hodkins , tomorrow is another day ......... a brand new one .
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March 27th: To do list:
Pharm :Pharmacokinetics and Pharmacodynamics
Path: Hemostasis
Questions: 50 with explanation
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