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Hey Malinda...may GOD be with you on exam day...my prayers are with you all the way...stay focused n' u'll be fine!!
Looks like I missed a lot of action on this thread (took my CS yesterday)...saw your NBME scores...those are some serious scores there Malinda...so now its OFFICIAL what I already knew...you ARE gonna do well!!!
GOD speed ahead!
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| tolito
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malinda, YOU CAN DO IT. GO FOR IT.
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It has been a looooong hard journey but I am inches away from my destination...
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| malinda
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DAY 1,OR SHOULD I SAY LAST 24 HOURS
Anxiety is creeping in.I am trying to keep my cool.trying to read all points that I tend to forget.I am thinking about leaving my books after I get back home from the library..BUT I AM SURE I WONT BE ABLE TO DO THAT.
FINALLY I AM THERE GUYS.thanx for the nice words,for the love,support.One thing I will definitely do,that is to be very very true about what I get and where I get.Even if I passed with a 76,I will tell you all,as for me Kerochi and Busy mom are an inspiration.I read all the experiences and got so over whelmed with the high high profiles.But there are average people,low scorers,failures,not too smart people accprding to this stupid usmle(CRAP)..and they are also doing it.As when I got depressed ,I used to read kerochi's writings even at step 2 journal,she gave me strength indirectly..I can talk all day,CANT I?
But honestly I am going with all the Bright people in my mind as my goal,all 90s and 99s.and I am going with the strength and faith of all the LIKE MEs on this forum....I LOVE U ALL SOOOOOO MUCH.God bless you.
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| kk21
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hi Malinda,
My best wishes are with you for tommorow. Your hard word WILL pay off and you will do well. You have inspired me to do my best and work hard. Just stay calm and focused because that will help with the ultimate goal...
Tommorow morning, I will say a prayer for you. May God bless you with success.
My best wishes for tommorow and always,
kk
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| mitty
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Goood Luck Malinda.
You have worked so hard.Go and give it your best.Remeber dear, one question at a time.One question at a time and it will be over.
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| general malaise
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best of luck to you tomorrow malinda, i'm sure you'll do great!!
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| Bartek
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malinda,
we all hope that you are just ALIVE!!! 
No matters where you feel you are right now, remember you are on your way! And we are with you. God bless you!
Best regards
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| malinda
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I am alive bartek ..JUST SCARED I GUESS.I am so scared of even coming on the forum bcz I feel I hyped the tension.I was tense so I made everyone anxious..
But your words :"we are with you"made my day..I feel so blessed..Its just a state of misery and humility on my part,and I realise so badly"WHAT AM I WITHOUT GOD?"I am begging like crazy for a good passing score from God and it feels like a slap from Him.."NOW YOU REMEMBER ME???"
Honestly I am trying my best to spend some quality time with my son.He has been over neglected for one year almost.so its mommy-baby time now a days.
God bless you guys..just dont get anxious,keep yourself calm and all of you are going to rock with God's will..I know that...
We can do it!!RIGHT???
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| kingsu
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yes.
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| malinda
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so should I now start a new count down for 3 weeks.nbme will be updated on 30th march..such a long long 3 weeks..I just hope I pass guys.Plz remember me in your prayers.
Cant believe its over.No books,nothing.its atsrange feeling.I just hope I dont have to read these books again.Good luck everyone..
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| malinda
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I am just looking at all the posts saying I MATCHED at diferent forums.It is such a big motivation.All these people started off just like all of us.Bit by bit,adding a drop in the ocean they reached where they are today..We all have one thing in common..OUR DREAM.I was so depressed in the last few days bcz of my exam and thinking about my results,but still there is hope and there will always be hope.God willing I will be there some day.I CAN DO IT.
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| hodgkins
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malinda very good job u have been a great inspiration for myself, hence I have started my journey saying "I can do it as well' Thanks for verything. wish you a very great score!!!!!
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| dipti
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hey malinda,good to see that you still write in your prep.i was very slow reader during my 1st reasding then i start reading prep journals for motivation.and your diary became the part of my routine reading.you inspired me a lot.i dont have kid but married for a year,moved twice,filled up with loneliness,since i came in usa,it was really hard for me to get into studies,i was used to do in my college days.but then took exam date in may,as i thought there should be some end to all this laziness and excuses...so studying seriously now.but really ,you helped me a lot.
thanks malinda .you dont know how your words are encouraging!god bless you all success in life!god bless your son every best of the world!
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| malinda
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those were such a sweet encouraging words dipti.Well time flies and you dont remember any more how much difficult things were for you once to reach the destiny..When I was pregnant with my son,I always used to tell my husband..I AM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN.I AM DONE WITH KIDS.But look at me.I just forgot how painful that time was..and how hard it was for me to study,be pregnant,and take care of the home.I flunked,but I got the most precious gift from God.MY BABY.and now I am again waiting for my results.and I dont mind having more kids,So God gives stregth for sure.there are rewards,there are hidden blessings,there are signs..and things start going in the right direstion when its the best time for them to be.
I dont know why bad things happen,but I know they dont last for ever.So I am waiting for my miracle.I have witnessed so many miracles in life,I just dont doubt God can do one for me this time too ..
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| drbin
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malinda it is good to see u back in the forum. urs is the mail that i look for in the forum first thing every day bs ur mails are always very much inspiring and they keep me moving the whole day bs im also like u an img MOM with a 2 yr old. i wish u a really huge score bs u deserve it.
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| dipti
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hey malinda,you ll think i am stupid to ask this question...but can you tell me we encoutered with patient only during CS?I mean we have to give practical only in step 2 or in step 3 also?
thanks
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| dipti
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hey malinda,
please help.today going too slowly.couldnt study yesterday evening and in morning.had some emotional problem.now cant concentrate.need some motivation.pl,pl help.so much too study,and getting disturb by some stupid emotions.pl tell something.
thanks.
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| malinda
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hey dipti.Sorry for the late reply.yes we are encountered with a patient only during CS.(i think so).honestly I am chicken today myself.Very anxious about the results.My books are on my desk and looking at them gives me so much anxiety,you cannot imagine.And the funny part is my optimism is at such a peak where I have step 2 first aid also on the same desk in front of me.My husband told me you will never touch step 2 books,I guess he is right again.Oh Gosh what a terrible waiting period and what a long journey.
well dipti,I can just advise one thing.you will be depressed today,wont study,in the evening you will watch TV,feel good,will tell your self"I was depressed today.so i will start tomorrow".you will go to bed early,have sweet dreams,wake up again in the morning.....BUT YOU LOST A DAY FROM YOUR LIFE,FROM USMLE PREPARATION TIME.Sometimes I feel we get depressed,emotional bcz we are scared to work hard.Bcz it is easy to get depressed than to sacrifice every enjoyment and look at your books 9 to 12 hours in a day.It takes a lot to wake up every day,go to the library,study all day all night.,than to get depressed and run away from our responsibilties.Atleast that is the case with me.I use depression as an excuse to take a day off.But when I get back to books,I find my self losing the precious time.Its not that I am some one perfect..I did all this what you are mentioning...but giving advice is also the easiest thing in the world to do than to practically do it yourself..I remember reet's words..TIME IS PRECIOUS.DONT WASTE IT!!Good luck
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| dipti
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thanks malinda,your words really work for me.i will send you a pm as i want to be honest with you.
you will get flying colors malinda,everybody is praying for you.you have worked so hard inspite of all critical situations.i think god takes exam of everybody in his or her life.he keeps watching you and if you are true he blesses you all good things.everybody knows here you were honest and true to your goal.so we all believe soon you are going to pick up step 2 first aid.
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| malinda
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thanx for the well wishes.
One week past my exam date.Now I have started to forget about the tough qs and there is a strange anxiety that doesnot let me sleep at night any more.I wake up in the middle of the night,log on to ecfmg and try to apply for step 1..I AM GOING CRAZY!..Its just been one week.I guess we have to wait till three thursdays pass.Honestly the day when I checked oasis the last time,I still remember how I felt when it let me go on till the end.I kind of knew I will fail.This time,I dont have that feeling.I HAVE NO FEELING AT ALL.and this is killing me.I am scared but I am hopeful.And I am so scared of the fact that with so much hope this time,if it let me go all the way again????? its like some one tells you all your life that if you work hard,you will reach your goal.and it will be like bull shit!!
Any ways,I keep checking every hour.I cannot tell you guys what that red screen means to me.People talk about low scores and unhappiness..How can we be so un thankful?I just wish I am lucky enough to see that red screen and then move on with my journey towards residency of my dreams...THIS TIME I AM OPTIMISTIC!!I wish my hope gets strength of realization from God..InshAllah
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| hodgkins
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Dear Malinda...!!
Yourself is not only the one who is waiting for your result...do U know that?? There are many friends here in the forum looking forward for ur result , same time praying as well!!
This exam makes us so anxious until v have results at hand...U have walked thru all the way, just few more days..the dark tunnel ends..to let the BRIGHT SUNSHINE IN
Whatever u have to do, U DID, now rest lies in the hands of GIVER, right now, if U ask me only thing you have control on is your immense FAITH in God and urself, pray hard so that you feel the inner strength and patience you need at this time.
Hold on..the day is not far, u post saying " I passed Guys, Thank GOD"..we are waiting to here that
Remembering you in my prayers...wish you great success dear Malinda
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| malinda
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that was such a sweet post hodgkins.Yeah you are right.What else can I do now but to pray..hope for the best and prepare for the worst.Lets see what happens with me and my struggle for step1.
Just one messege for the newly weds..PLAN WISELY.Plan you prep so that u finish exams in 2 years and then have a kid if you are REALLY goal oriented.May be I am wrong in saying this,if you like you can have kids side by side but plan wisely.Plan before hand what you are going to do with the kid.Talk to family.Get every help possible.Some brave moms have even sent their kids to inlaws,parents so that they can study..But plz PLAN.Dont just go with the flow and be casual with this struggle.Down the road,its a mess.The most reasonable thing to do is to get it over with before getting married.I SOUND LIKE A GRAND MOTHER..Dear grand daughters ,,,,plz plan your future wisely.just kidding.DO WHATEVER SUITS YOU WELL..
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| USMLEGladiator
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well said malinda,
i may add
Dear grand sons ,,,,pls plan your future wisely.Draw realistic plans to balance ur residency marathon & family life. GL.
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| hodgkins
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Wow..
Thankyou little girls..for all ur wise advice..certainly, its time to think and decide, same time thankyou for making me feel so good of being young..., .but not anymore in front of my mom thou..
For her I am getting old..guys, says U study how muchever u want to..but plan your family wisely , as early its better...but only God knows what its best..right.
Anyway I am really happy..to have u all around..Friends as such....have no age bar guys, friends are friends ..as long as u r friend u can be mother, sister..any role u want to play..its all just fun!!
God Bless
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| malinda
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PHEW!!!!one more week to go.Cant say I am not anxious..I am just looking forward to the big day of oasis trick.I just hope and pray I get a chance to see that red screen.With God's will.
Just having ups and downs of life and daily routine..Husband just had a small surgery.Alhamdullilah he is fine now.So there are other things besides steps in life..and life doesnot end here.It will go on and on ,whether with us or without us...
Its hard to wait for this week to end.I will do oasis on march 30th.I need your prayers guys..God bless you all.
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