Malithahe
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Hi,
I'm a MBBS graduate. Although I was graduated one year back,we will be getting our internship in my country one year after the graduation due to certain problems in the system. After internship we will be definitely given a government appointment. According to the final exam results the place of work and the fields are determined. Getting a government appointment is important as nongoverment doctors cannot do post graduate in my country.
I came to USA to stay with my husband two months back and started studying for USMLE step 1 hoping to do in April/May. I got to know that internship in my country is starting in fivedays time. if I donot go for it at this time I will be listed in the bottom whenever I do intern. Probably I have to go to a far rural area or a war region.
If I do well in USMLE and qualify here there won't be any problem. But still I even can't guess what would happen to me in USMLE.
But my final decision was to stay in USA and do USMLE step 1. If I perform well it's ok. If I fail or donot score much I will go back to my country and do intern and carry on my work in a rural/war area, may be putting my life in risk, sacrifysing my family life.
I studied only for one month. But didn't do much. I was so slow and lazy. But with this decision, I determined to do very well and work hard. I need a lot of strength, a lot of psychological strength.
I used to do a lot discussions with my friends while in my medical school. But now I don't have anybody to discuss with. All my friends are getting their appointment soon while I'm studying here. The only friend and the relation I have here, my husband doesnt know anything about medicine.Although he encourages me he is also busy and stressed with his graduate studies. So the only friend ralated to medicine I have is this forum.
I need encouragement, psychological streangth, stimulation. I believe in social facilitation. So I need to know whether I'm doing my studies in a good level.
So from today onwards I will write my diary. to evaluate my self, to keep me alert, to keep me stimulated.
Dear friends help me to build up my future
I'm the most clever child of the family, I was the best student of my high school, I was selected to the best medical school in the country, I was among good students in my medical school So I don't want to be a failure at this time. I'm know I'm competing with the best graduates of the world. But if I fail sometimes I will endup as a house wife. I don't want to let it happen.
Yes  I will study hard from today onwards. I will not allow depression to swallow me
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| Believe
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good luck mal, it seems you are on your way, go for it!
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| Malithahe
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So.........
Though I started yesterday , I almost didn't do anything. Only a few pages in Physio, cardiac cycle. I was not depressed but I had some visitors.....but I could have studied.
Yes today I will finish CVS - physio and path and if possible pharm too
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| Malithahe
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oh no......
couldn't finish CVS physio even.only 10 pages yesterday. I'm ashamed of my self..
No no i will finish all CVS today
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| Malithahe
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Thank you Believe. Thanks for the encoursgement.
Weekend is over. No studies during the weekend.
Yesterday, finished CVS physio, did questions. I'm still so slow, studying very leisurely. I must be faster. I made many foolish mistakes too. Altogether this is my ignorance, which should be corrected immediately.
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| 26malik
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you must learn from your mistakes quickly and eliminate them as soon as possible and vow never to do them again. one thing i have learned is that if one takes life easy, it gets very very difficult.
best of luck for your prep
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| Malithahe
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Thank you 26 malik. Yes I must take life more seriously, than this.
This is all because , I know that I'm not alone and even if I fail in everything I have the shelter of my husband.But this thought is too bad,I shouldn't be a dependent. I must build up my carrier.
I'm not too bad today. Studied 55 pages of Physio with kaplan lectures. Did questions. yes not too bad.
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I wanted to finish CVS two days back. But still I'm doing. hopefully i will be able to finish it tomorrow completely.
Did patho. today. i'm too slow in reading but i don't mind as it is my first reading. This is the first time of my life I'm going to read the same books three times. I did exams in my past, even medical faculty finals with one reading. So I used to read slowly putting everything in to my mind. still I'm doing it. I only read Kaplan and I feel it is inadequate.But there are many who have got 99 doing Kaplan only. So I will try.....
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today I'm planing to finish Anatomy abdomen and GIT physio. see how much I can achieve.
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| Drstudyserious2006
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Mal,
It seems u r doing good in ur studies. I know its hard to study with the family responsibilities as I'm also in the same situation like u.
Any way we can do it , keep studying.Good luck to ur studies.By the way I also post a message to u in my diary.We can encourage each other & we will ace this exam.
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| Malithahe
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Thank you Drstudy serious.
OOOOh, Nearly one week, couldn't do studies well. sooo busy. Had to help husband to finish his big project during the weekend. Now doing my research work ( one of my reserches has been selected for Medical Council Annual Cessions in my country. I need to prepare the presentation, and the detailed research report .) Soon I must go back to my studies. sooner the better
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| Malithahe
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I'm so distressed and depressed, after hearing a person says that I don't have courage and strength to study hard and do the exam well  It's really hard when you feel that you are alone in this world
But why do you listen out siders ????????? go your journey
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| spring06
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hi malithahe
hope u are doing well,do not listen to any person who tries to put u down
good luck
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| 26malik
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hi
where are you???
dont be depressed. it gives you nothing.
and what are courage and strength? you have them if you think you have them and you dont have them if you think you dont have them.
and you are a doctor.you cannot pass all the exams needed to be a doctor without hard work and courage to face stress and fears and pressure and sacrifices.
so buck up. you can do it.
and regarding lonliness. someone said" when we say we are alone, we forget the company of some one who is always with us. ourselves"
so you got yourself. that is enough. you got God. who created you in such a wonderful way. who loves you. so now dont shy away from life' challenges.
All the best.
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