LisaM
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Today I am very depressed. I tried to revise pharm and found that I got many questions wrong which I got right the first time around. Poosh's ENT doc was very nice and explained how she the fluid in her ear keeps getting infected and it was our choice to either keep giving her antibiotics or go for myringotomy. The frequent antibiotics are going to contribute to side effects and multi drug resistance and the myringotomy was a fairly common procedure here. We have scheduled for Poosh to have her surgery on the 5th of August in the hopes that I will be taking my USMLE on the 4th indeed!
Maybe thats one reason for my depression. My husband has been trying to do his best to help me concenterate all my energies in my studies and I thought I was doing my best. Or was I not? Does it all matter that much in the grand scheme of life? I am afraid that all my efforts and all their sacrifices (husband and baby's) may come to nothing in the end! I may be gong a little crazy too with all this stress. I cried for about 20 minutes and that helped me feel a little better. I believe firmly in God but I also believe that God helps those who help themselves. I think I have tried to keep up wtih my end of the bargain and it is now time to turn the ball in his court entirely. Why is it so difficult as I grow older to really place all my trust in God like I used to when I was much younger? I went to church this morning and the sermon was beautiful. It was based on Matthew Chapter 13- how Jesus esplains about the Kingdom of God in 7 parables.
So today, at my moment of total despair, I have decided not to worry about this exam. Afterall, I cannot change anything by worrying. Whether it will be worthwhile and how worthwhile is not for me to debate or decide. I am just going to arm myself with as much knowledge as I can and go face this exam.
Friends, I love reading your journals and posting in them too. However, I will have to wait and catch up soon after my exams. Wish we well for the NBME (second and final one) on wednesday the 27th.
Lisa
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| KEROCHI
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I wish you & your baby all the best lisaM. I pray that her surgery goes well. All the best in your exam!! I am praying for you right now....
I moved my exam once again, prolonging my agony but for sure this time I will be up & ready for it.
God bless.
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| kaira
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hey lisa.........hope everythng is fine wth u and poosh is dng well tooo........
ALL THE BEST FOR UR EXAM....
will pray fr u.......
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| docmama
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LisaM,
Tried to reach u through email. Just wanted u to know that i'm praying for u. Good luck and God bless. Go with confidence. In time all the hard work will pay off.
docmama
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| cyra
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Hey Lisa...good luck for the exam!!Shall be praying for you!
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| LisaM
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Hello everyone, Thank you for all your good wishes. I survivied! I passed with 212/86. Gave the exam on August 4th and got my result on saturday the 3rd of September. I owe you all so much! Thank you for believing in me and encuraging me in my moments of serious self doubt. I will post details of my exam preparation etc, soon.
Edited by LisaM on 09/08/05 - 08:35 AM
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| cyra
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LisaM!!!!!....this is wonderful!!!!i am sooo proud of you!!!You must be so relieved....i hope you are having the best time ever woth poosh!!...regards!
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