gbono2
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Well, the long wait is over. Oasis allowing me to log in for a new exam was 100% right on. I got my score results today & failed a second time. This numerical score is almost identical to my previous one. I have basically wasted 1 year of studying with no improvement.
My wife & I have decided to quit wasting our time with ECFMG & get back to life because this just isn't going anywhere. I am going to concentrate on opening a chiropractic office & becoming productive again. You see, I am much older than most of you students out there. I have 2 doctor-type degrees - 1 in chiropractic & the second in medicine. I just have no desire to continue this studying any longer & just feel that it is not paying off for me. I am going to sell my Goljan & Kaplan references on Ebay.
My daughter & wife have both stated today that although I graduated from medical school perhaps it wasn't God's will for me to have this. Anyway, it's on with business.
I want to thank all of you who were supportive & encouraging. I really do appreciate it.
I wish all of you success in passing this beast. May God bless all of you.
George
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| mjl1717
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My only comment is that sometimes it can take a while to find our niche in life. Also if you do bail out at least you have a parachute (chiropractic doctor)
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| mana70
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hi george sorry i misspelled your name and push wrong button i wanted to pest my letter under this link anyway please read my letter.
mana
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| penguins
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George,
I just posted a reply to one of your earlier posts, but led me add something here: Don't give up!
I am glad you are seeking God's will, but do really think God wants you to have wasted your years spent in med school? Maybe this is just a period of refinement. Remember, if it was God's will for you to go to medical school, God doesn't change. "I am the same yesterday, today, and forever."
Also remember that there is more in this world than God and people. If you are truly seeking to be a Godly physician, you will be targeted by the armies of darkness. Satan will try to confuse you, slow you down, tear you down, wear you down, and depress you. Ask yourself this: the way you feel now, is that how God wants you to think about yourself? Remember, your heart is good, and was made by God, and He wants the best for us. Don't let this time of battle make you lose sight.
And also, I know several people who failed twice, passed the third time, and went on to get some good residencies. Take heart!
The USMLE is probably the single hardest test on the planet. In my other post, I asked you about your study material and habits. If what you are doing now isn't working, mix it up a little. We all have our own best ways of learning. Maybe the materials you are using aren't the best for you.
Take heart! After you pass, you may come to realize that this experience made you a better doctor. Who knows? Some day you might have to treat us.
Feel free to e-mail privately: robshields@juno.com. My husband or I will do anything we can to encourage and help you.
God bless,
Emily
PS: Don't bail out of the plane just because of some turbulence.
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| Raingirl
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Emily you are such a wonderful person, I am also inspired by what you said, thanks!
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| pray4md
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gbono2,
i know a guy who came from ross and failed his step 1 twice and finally passed on his 3rd attempt. he is now an anesthesiology resident. dont let the politics of this exam hold u down. be strong and make sure to use different sources to study or do something different and figure out where you went wrong.
make sure to also use NBME and kaplan and all the sources we talk about on here.
good luck and i hope it all works out
p4md
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| pinkangel
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Gbono2,
I know how it feels to fail. I've done if 3 times before passing on my 4th try. Would it be possible to work and study at the same time? I have heard of many foreign medical grads who have been able to hold a full time job and pass the USMLE.
Just don't give up. Even though people may think everything in my life is rosy right now, I'm still severely depressed. The Match is this week, and I'm not counting on getting a position out of the measly 2 interviews I had this year due to my late release of my USMLE score. I've been holed up in my room all week, barely eating, not bathing, and having my family worry about me terribly. If that's not depression, I don't know what is.
I am a Christian like Emily who posted earlier and I do believe medicine is a calling. I don't believe God allows many people the opportunity to study this noble art if he doesn't intend us to use it to heal his creatures. What is it that is making you decide to call it quits? Think about this: How will you feel when a fully licensed IMG MD comes into your chiropractic office for a back problem? Will you completely feel proud of yourself, feel a twinge of anger, guilt, jealousy, inferiority, or.....? You fill in the blank. I know of many pharmacists, dentists, and pharmaceutical reps who couldn't get into medical school and have inferiority complexes when they encounter physicians, IMG or AMG. I hope you can honestly say that if you choose to stay only with your chiropractic office and give up medicine, that you won't have any regrets when you see a fellow practicing MD.
I've asked myself this question and know that I will continue to perservere until I succeed. There were sooooo many times when I wanted to quit, believe me, I even yelled at God for chosing me to become a physician. He saved me so many times from certain death during medical school - exams, the order of my clinical rotations, the attendings I worked with, etc. I got so mad at God for putting me through this. I shouted at him through hot and angry tears- why me God? The path is so long and arduous, can't you just give up on me and choose someone else? I'm deeply serious when I tell you this.
Just like a diamond in the rough, God knows the potential of a good stone when he sees it. A wise attending in medical school told me this analogy when I was discouraged and thinking about quitting med school. It takes a lot of polishing and painstaking precision cutting before the fire and the brilliance of the stone can finally be revealed for all to see.
God has shown me in many ways that medicine is my calling even when I yelled at him to bug someone else. Why couldn't I just work a 9-5 job and be like the average American? I don't know why, but he chooses us because he wants us to fulfill his purpose while we live out our short lives on earth.
Now believe me, I'm not a religious "fanatic" or whatever that means here, I'm just another ordinary person whose faith in God has been tested, shaped, and strengthened through the trials I have been put through. And you know what? I'm still going through them. Read my latest entries in my diary if you don't believe me. Currently, I feel like shit. I don't know about the Satan part but I do know that the asshole exists. He is everywhere we go. However, I believe our doubts are a result of us just being human and not because Satan puts ideas into our heads. That kind of thinking is a bit too heavy for me. We're not God, simply put. How can we be perfect and pure?
Please reconsider and think about what I and everyone else on this forum said. You are never "too old" to heal others and use the gift that God gave you.
Love,
pinkangel
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