oldmonk
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hi
i can't really feel anything now, benumbed by OASIS. Whether to believe OASIS or my instinct? I came back after the exam feeling good, my only concern was whether i will make it above the 90's....and now after OASIS documents my score report date, I'm being allowed to re register. Just can't assimilate it. So much hard work, so much effort, persistence, time, money.......what has all that come to?
I must think I adjudge myself fairly, infact I could even say 'critically'....for me to over estimate my performance is unlikely. But then there are people here who say OASIS is near 100% right...
to think I'm four days to my wedding and outside the country. It'll be 3 weeks before i can check my snail mail. What is ECFMG giving me as a wedding present?
Somebody please advice. Is this end of the road for me?
I worked hard, guys, OASIS has rendered me completely befuddled!!
Anybody here who can make me feel a little better?
How do I tell my parents and everyone out there who's been praying for me? How can I keep my face straight on my wedding day?
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| ELM
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I hear you.
It sucks, but it's not the end of the road sertianly not the end of your hard work! Make sure everybody understand how hard this test is.....and tell them you will try your best next time! Now try to concentrate on your wedding and partner ..... many fails on these tests you know, but they pass next time.
What were your NBME and other practice test scores? What materials did you use? How long and how much time did you spend for study? Tell us your story....so we can help you to find what went wrong this time.
It's ok...... get over with it now and be happy that you are going to marry! That's great! Much and much more meanful and thankful than these tests....hope you know!
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| maqsur
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Hi oldmonk,
First of all, congrats on your marriage! Now, I was in a similar situation to you vis a vis OASIS. Back in October I had checked OASIS to find out that my CK report had been sent out, so I thought I would try this trick that I was told about. I re-registered, and it allowed me! I found out two days later that I had indeed failed the exam - by one point. Needless to say, I did not feel so hot at that moment.
However, I immediately re-registered, and sat for the exam again in December. Just yesterday, I checked OASIS (as I have been doing every day for the past 5 weeks), and my report had come out. Tried to re-register, and voila, I passed!
So, my point in all this is, you are not alone in this experience, and as you read mine and several others' posts here, you will defninitely bounce back; just take a deep breath, and then get back to studying. This time, though, look at your score report when you receive it, and see what areas did not go well for you, and focus on those for studying. I ignored the subjects that I did better on, and only read about stuff that I felt I was weak on.
Don't feel bad about getting this result before your marriage. Marriage is a wonderful experience, and you should enjoy it fully. Thinking about your score now will not change the result, right? So why let it affect the positive developments in life? Besides, it's just one test, and you can always take it again. That's my way of looking at it. Failure happens to everyone in life, and we take it and and we learn from it. If no one failed, we would all be perfect, and nobody is perfect as you know.
Keep your chin up, celebrate a LOT during your wedding, and when you get back you will be refreshed, and able to tackle this exam again. Good luck with everything, and congratulations on your marriage!
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| r753_2000
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oldmonk, did you double check that your score has been mailed out?
did you check if there was a date shown by Step 2 ck in oasis and was there a date stating when it was sent out?
You should have done this before you reapplied for oasis.
if not, i'm truly sorry.
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| 2bmd
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Hello Oldmonk,
I can absolutely understand what you are going through. But you have to keep in mind, whats done is done. You need to focus on what is to come...your wedding! As devastating as your news may be, you have to keep in mind that you WILL get through this exam....so what if its not when you expected it. Its not worth thinking about it now and ruining such a special day that will be with you forever. I guarentee you 5 years from now, when you are practicing physician, and you are looking through your wedding pictures with you family, you will not want to be reminded of what you are going through now. So focus on the upcoming event and the new beginning in your life. Once you spend some time with your spouse, you can get back to your books now and now you'll have spousal support, something that you didnt have before and may be more helpful in you studies. As far as parents go....they wont be disappointed by you or your performance. They know how hard you've worked. I think they would handle it better if they knew YOU were okay with it. I mean you have a huge distraction with the wedding and all, and as long as you relay to them that you know you can tackle this exam and its only a minor setback, they can focus on the happiness of the moment.
Wish you the best in your studies and your marriage...congratulations.
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| adeelmd
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man you are getting married!! what is wrong with you??!!! Steps, your career, medicine.... i mean that's all bullshit compared to getting married!!! When you are 60 years old... your grandchildren are going to come to visit on your wedding anniversary.. not on the anniversary of your score report!!!!... Seriously, forget about medicine... this time is all about you... and your love... and NOONE and NOTHING has the right to spoil it.
I found out i FAILED in my final year exam the DAY i got married. I said to myself "i tried my best, screw them." and enjoyed my marriage and the days after. If someone asks about your score (don't get angry cuz they don't really care either.. they are just attempting small talk) just tell them that you want to enjoy your wedding without having to think about medicine and surgery and you will look at your score report after the honeymoon... as for your parents.. tell them you failed first chance you get so it's over as soon as possible.. but ask them not to tell anyone else. be diplomatic about it... YOU are getting married.. maybe those question writers at nbme are just getting jealous.
it's like finding a million dollars.. but crying nontheless over a paper cut... SCREW THE USMLE!!!!
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| ELM
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Hahhaahhhaaaa :lol: I love it!!
Yeah screw these tests!!!!!!!!!
I am gonna have a party tonight ...it's huge blizzard outside, got to celebrate it! :lol: a good excuse for a party!
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| oldmonk
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for everyone out there who tried to cheer me up,
thanks a million. It's a tough situation and I'm sticking it out with all my mettle. On my toes and running now, but I promise to be back to take you through my journey into step 2 and now the results. My confidence has taken a bad beating, frankly speaking, I didnt have an iota of speculation about passing. But perhaps it only means I have to work harder, harder than reading the "bible" of Internal Medicine- Harrison's cover to cover.
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| SA
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Don't go for Harrison's cover to cover and have a nice time with your wife and tell her it is difficult exam and try to get her spourt and let me tell you her spourt will better then "Harrison's cover to cover".
Just for get every thing and ejoy life and then in next few month you will be through with your USMLE ok
ELM...it's huge blizzard over her in Maryland as well.
I am trying to study though
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| katzung
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Hey oldmonak it would take atleast three-4 monthst to read harisons from cover to cover i am telling u because i have read it cover to cover and it is not worth the effort for usmle step-2.
and by the time u re-read it and remember things init a new edition would have comeout.
Cheer-up buddy,just re-read kaplan notes and u shud be fine, and by the way dont loose all hope and all the best for evrything.
take care.
with prayers for you.
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| oldmonk
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there is a maxim : "when the crunch gets to the grind, bite your teeth and bear with it", more or less what I'm doing now especially that there is a rapid progression of many important events in this short span of time. I don't want to sound despondent and get the rest of my audience worked up too, I'd rather say that I can't fathom the way it has all turned out. I'm not the best or the brightest, but I'm above average and I worked hard. With less than half the amount of work I put in for this exam, I topped my class in the final year. Obviously this is an unexpected set back, needlessly on the eve of another important personal event. There are people who say "it's your fault, why were you so impatient you could have waited till it arrived on paper", but I would say 'that is escapism'. What is to happen will happen, no matter when the results are looked at.
I'm getting married after 6 long years of a relationship, to me marriage is only a symbolic event . In that sense, this exam was more important to me at this juncture, all my hopes were pinned up on it.
But, I move on, with a small flame of hope until the ordained day- in utter disbelief and denial !! I know this is also a phase and it will soon pass however dampening it might now be.
For all you guys out there, a big hug and thanks for being there. For SA, please let's keep the invectives out of conversations. Perhaps it would help you to know that, in this case "I'm the WIFE" :-) thanks anyway.
a transformed-monk
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| ELM
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I like your narrivatives. :lol:
Go for it monk!
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