Roxanita
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Hello Angel  /
I read your last post and understand that you feel very anxious about your results, sweetie I wish from the bottom of my heart that you pass this exam, I know it's been like a stone on the road for you, I was very touched by your story at the beginning of this angelical diary.... and maybe it's selfish from me but things happen for some reason and you pinkangel with your words of encourage and example of "never give up", you have given us so much hope and faith in ourselves, people like me that at some point in their lifes felt "lost" and powerless to change the present for a better future.
I know you will be the greatest american physician, you were born for this, you are like your nick says "an angel" and no matter what you will be there :icon_thumb: I know you have faith in God and he wont let you down this time my friend, believe
I Hope to hear the good news soon 
Your friend,
Roxy.
Growing Up is hard...
Growing Up is not easy to do.
But each time you grow...
You learn something new.
And each time you grow...
You get a little bit closer
to your dreams coming true.
Growing up is not easy to do...
But it's worth it !!!
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| pinkangel
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Hi friends,
This morning, I heard the familiar low pitched whir of the mailman's truck as he zoomed in front of my mailbox to deliver the daily mail. For some reason, I had this sinking feeling in my stomach that today would be the day I receive the verdict. Gulp.
I raced out the door and opened the mailbox to discover the familiar white perforated notice that I had seen 3 times before. It was here.
I scrambled into the house and sat on my staircase to catch my breath before finding out my fate:
PASS
210
85
My eyes couldn't believe it for a moment and then my brain registered the meaning. My agony was over! I screamed in happiness and clutched the piece of paper pried open from its spots of cheap glue for what seemed like eternity until I regained my composure. I can't believe it.
I want to thank all my friends on this forum for their loyal support and wise words of encouragement, gentle confrontation, advice, and love. I couldn't have made it to this point without you. Special thanks go out to Niti and Kiran for keeping the flame alive. Both of you mean so much to me.
There are so many others I would like to thank: Roxy, Moc, Krushna, Rofah2003, samuel, mp, kiddoc, igg, zokorro, Kerochi, Alina T., zhouyong, VM, MLF, cordmd, pvd, mitty, and last but not least - my hero, Namf.
So you see friends, anyone can achieve success with perserverence and strong will. If I did it, I know you can. :P
Keep up the fight! :icon_salut:
Love,
pinkangel
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| pvd
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wow!!! that's great news! i'm so happy for you
you deserve it!
i'm glad that i've joined this forum. the testimonials are heartfelt and encouraging.
-pvd-
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| lmbebo
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congratulations,
you worked hard for that grade. Enjoy the feeling
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| abhi
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I'm really happy for you and have been praying for you. Very happy to hear that you made it and may all your dreams come true. Wishing you a bright future in psychiatry.
I'm still waiting for oasis to update i guess it will be updated this thrusday. will keep u posted.
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| Roxanita
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CONGRATULATIONS PINKANGEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /
wooooo hooooooooo!!!!!.... I knew you would make it  Enjoy sweetie, now is your time :icon_queen:
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| namf
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YOU MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:
I'm so happy for you. I know as everyone is. You have walked out of the Tiger's den, truly now, uri chunsa (and I don't mean upper respiratory infection chunsa, either!:roll: ).
Now go celebrate or something! :wink:
Love,
Namf
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| Ahab
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Thats fantastic news, congratulations. Been rooting for you for the last few weeks now, if anyone deserves a break it is you. Well done
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| niti
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Hi pinkangel...
First of all ..CONGRATULATIONS! -({|=
I am away from my studies bec. of some personal reasons & will come back on Sunday ( Feb/27 ) ..But, I was eagerly waiting for your result just like u…as a FMG u were not able to do OASIS trick so…your score report suppose to be in mail on Monday…. I just checked the forum to see your post....& Here is the good news...u made it… wish u a residency program of your choice..& Happy future… D
I remember…when I asked u ..What were the reasons of your previous failures..& u bravely & honestly gave the answer…& I think this was the first day….when I was sure about your success this time…bec. ,in my opinion…the reason of repeated failure is ..doing same mistakes again & again..& Result? SAME….no wonder , u knew your situation & was working on it…& now, got the result what u deserved…(about this score… this is a pretty descent score…I will be happy with this score too…even if I am aiming for higher ! )..
YOU ARE A SUNSHINE FOR THOSE WHO LOST THEIR HOPES & also a good example for everybody…hard work never go waste…
Love.. O)
niti
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| mjl1717
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Congratulations pinkangel-At least its History Now!
Thx for the encouragement and its good to know that it IS possible (although some may say not probable) for one to increase there score by at least 12 or more points at one sitting!! Very Good and you earned it.
You're a success story!
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| mitty
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CONGRAGULATIONS!!!!!
I was realy worried about you and you cann't imagine how I react when I see your post.You made it and I am happy for you. God bless .
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hhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy pinkkkkkk
i just now saw the post.....i'm so happy for you.you made it.now you have all the happy days ahead.i'm like at loss of words to write.you became a role model for all of us.dont leave this forum......please.would be pleased to see ur posts.....
A VERY HEARTFELT CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!.LET US KNOW ABOUT THE RESULTS OF YOUR RESIDENCY MATCHING......hope you have a successful days ahead.....
now you really need a break....just go out and enjoy. :-({|= :-({|= :-({|= / / / <:flag:> :icon_queen: :icon_bounce: :icon_bounce: :icon_bounce: :icon_bounce: :icon_thumb: :-({|= :-({|= / :icon_bounce: :icon_queen:
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| Moctopod
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Hi Pink. Yeeeeeeeeeessssssssss!
All this week I was thinking and praying for you and you've done it! We knew you could, and you've done us so proud. After all those months at the Kaplan centre, what a reward - the skills to slay a tiger and to be a great doc!
So, what now, Pinkangel? When do you hear back from the two hospitals, and what are you doing in the meantime? Whatever you all, remember to visit the team back at the forum.
Sarang hae yo (I hope this means something - spent ages trying to get a translation!).
Yours,
Moc
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| pinkangel
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"Moctopod" wrote:
Hi Pink. Yeeeeeeeeeessssssssss!
All this week I was thinking and praying for you and you've done it! We knew you could, and you've done us so proud. After all those months at the Kaplan centre, what a reward - the skills to slay a tiger and to be a great doc!
So, what now, Pinkangel? When do you hear back from the two hospitals, and what are you doing in the meantime? Whatever you all, remember to visit the team back at the forum.
Sarang hae yo (I hope this means something - spent ages trying to get a translation!).
Yours,
Moc
Oh Moc!
You've got me blushing. :oops: So you've figured out what language I wrote to namf in. I love you too in all the usmle brother/sisterhood we've established in the past few months. 8) :P And everyone else on this forum - niti, kiran, roxy, and the rest of the gang - Sarang hae yo my friends!
Thanks for your post. I won't be abandoning this forum - not when there's so many people that need encouragement. I hope that my experience with the tiger has helped others to keep the dream alive.
As for the rest of the time between now and match day, well, I'm going to take it easy. I've been partying all day yesterday after the good news so I'm a bit hung over from the ethanol. :wink: 8) :P It's a great feeling to know that my stubborness with this thing finally paid off. I'm going to take a vacation and fly over to CA to visit my best friend from medical school. She's so excited to see me and she's already made plans to show me around LA, San Francisco, and Napa Valley where wine country is. I'll be making some road trips to my medical school and other states to meet other friends of mine who are in their 2nd year of residency.
I'll post regularly as I did before, doing my best to cheer the rest of my online family as they study to slay the beast. My job is not over yet, still have much encouraging to do here on the forum, there are many people that need to keep the dream alive - I can't abandon them my friend.
Keep up with your studies and let us know you are doing on a regular basis. All the best!
Love,
pinkangel
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| krushna
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Hurrrrrrrrrrrrrreh!
Congratulations!
I was away for long time because of some bad circumstances.(My uncle & aunty died in RTA) .
Today when i came back home and started my computer,i had but only one thought i mind,by now pinkangel must have got her scores.
And yes...you did it.
I am sooooooooo happy for you.
You made all of us so happy.
May God give you success lie this always in your future life also.
Al the best for your career in psychiatry.
I wish i can meet with all of you sometime in wards!
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| zokorro
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Oh dear pinkangel!!! I have been away for a while. But i am back now. If you know what i mean. The first thing i did when i got back to the forum was to check what had happened with you. As i read the last page of your diary i saw that you finally made your dream come true.
Gosh i am so inspired by you! when i read it i started crying... i was full of feelings towards you. That was a great victory. You, your story and encouraging words have touched my heart. I send you a hug.
You have no idea how you have moved me.
I am back.
Love, zokorro
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| abhi
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hi pinkangel
finally i have good news too. i tried the oasis trick and it says that i have passed step1, am now waiting for score report should get it by saturday or monday.
thank you so much for all your prayers and this has really increased my faith in god and prayers. as u know this was second time too and so i was really tensed. But right now i can't tell you how good i feel that step 1 is over finally. good luck to you, and i will always keep you in my prayers.
thank you once again.
abhi
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| pinkangel
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"abhi" wrote:
hi pinkangel
finally i have good news too. i tried the oasis trick and it says that i have passed step1, am now waiting for score report should get it by saturday or monday.
thank you so much for all your prayers and this has really increased my faith in god and prayers. as u know this was second time too and so i was really tensed. But right now i can't tell you how good i feel that step 1 is over finally. good luck to you, and i will always keep you in my prayers.
thank you once again.
abhi
Congratulations abhi! =D> :-({|= <:can_u_hear_me_now:>
<happy_birthday> / :P I'm soooo happy for you! That is wonderful news. Isn't God good? You will be in my prayers too. Best of luck for Steps 2 and 3. I can feel it, you'll make a great doc!
Love,
pinkangel
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| mp
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dear pinkangel,
Hi! I am MP, and i silently read your diary for inspiration from time to time to get motivated and stay on the right track. Especially when being in my situation (many many failed attempts at step one)... when I need a boost, your diary helps me so much. And today after many many weeks I opened up your diary, looking for the same push... i see a very uplifting post by you... I read that you passed. I don't know you, but it feels like I do. You deserve all the best that this world can offer!! And congradulations for your achievements!! I must say that i am not surprized, because with your strong will power, I expected you to do as well as you did.
Enjoy your victory, and hopefully, those of us who are influenced by you, will share similar news with you too.
(congradulations to you abhi too!!)
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| berkeleyboy
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just wanted to say hi and see how your doing!
all the best,
Berk
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| Moctopod
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Hey Pink
How are you? Enjoying the holiday? How is Cali??
I'm really confused about your little message in my diary. Help! :wink:
Looking forward to seeing you back in the forum very soon. Bye for now!
Yours,
Moc
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| niti
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Hi pink..
Just to say Hello D How r u & what r doing at present?You r almost gone though..but, still..your off & on presence made this Diary Land..a much safer & a better place...
Wish u a very happy & bright future forever..
With Love..
niti
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| pinkangel
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Hi friends,
Thanks for your kind messages. I feel guilty for not writing as often in my diary as in the past. However, I do not want to bore you with mundane details of my life that are not USMLE related. I am still planning a trip to my friend out in CA, trying to find a plane ticket that doesn't cost an arm and a leg is quite a challenge. Anyone with ideas let me know. Priceline, expedia, travelocity, any others that I haven't heard of? I don't want my parents to foot all my bills. I owe them so much already. I know they love me and support me the best way they know how.
The only reason I'm posting today is because next week is the Match and I just received an email from NRMP about it today. With only 2 interviews and a score report released just a week before rank deadlines, my chances of matching look pretty slim. I'm feeling pretty depressed right now and have been in my room pretty much all week. My family is encouraging me to get out of the house so I don't develop agoraphobia (which I don't think I will) :? but I am feeling very despondent.
I really don't want to hear that "the hard part is over and now you just have to get a position". There is an option to scramble, but from the experiences of others who have gone through it, beggars can't be chosers. For all I know, most of the positions are out in the boonies where I know I won't be happy. I am left with the decision to get a research job for a year and match again somewhere in the east coast, or take whatever is left. Many of you will probably get angry reading this, saying that I should count my blessings, but this is my diary, and I will write how I feel. I am always preparing for the worst case scenario - seems like all those failures have trained me for it. :? 8)
It is true that someone else's life always looks greener on the other side, but this is not true. My dad's way of encouraging me is by telling me that if I don't match this year, everybody in our community is going to laugh at me - especially my ex-boyfriend who cheated on me and married another girl last Christmas through an arranged meeting. Remember him? The guy who met me on Match day last year when I matched at this really great program? The one who said during our first week of dating, "Wow! I'm dating and MD!" What a freak. He didn't have time to wait for me until I was done with my medical studies - he didn't care whether or not I passed the USMLE. All he cared about was finding a suitable bride because his parents were pushing him to get married. The one he is married to now can hardly speak English and he isn't that great speaking her native language. I know because I speak it better than he does.
As my pastor told me, GOD BLESS THEM! Excuse me. I know I'm getting personal here and some of you may disapprove, but this is my diary and no one will know who I am. I really need to vent today.
If you guys only knew where I matched. I think the knowledge of that fact kills me. Why would God do that? To show me that I'm good enough to get accepted to one of the nation's top psychiatry programs - only to take it away? It kills me. I'd rather not have matched at all. I cried so many tears when I decided to send them my letters of withdrawal. They never acknowledged receipt of them. They ignored me after that, just like I was a piece of garbage. They hired another PGY-1 to take my place once they realized that I didn't have a passing score and to add insult to injury, I had my own IMG mother who is in the same profession tell me," Shame on you! You, an AMG, lost your residency position to an FMG!" Coming from my own FMG mother, it really stung. I felt like shit. Now, everytime I hear that institution's name, I cringe. I get angry, and I have to hold back the tears. My father yelled at me last year and told me I was throwing away a chance of a lifetime to train at this program. I knew it too, but I refused to take the exam if I wasn't ready. The program director told me that I was causing them a great inconvenience and that I "had nothing to lose by taking the exam". In a month's notice? Bullshit. He then went on to say, "Anway, I already hired a 7th PGY-1 in case you fail the exam. If you pass, then you can join us and we can make room for 7 interns this year." I felt so hurt and betrayed.
I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm having some kind of PTSD and anxiety knowing that the match is coming up next week. This is my state of mind, and if it worries you, don't worry. I'm not going to do anything rash or harmful to myself or others. I've been through so much shit in my life that this is just another pile that I have to navigate through.
People, I'm not really happy right now. I'm under a lot of pressure and I really wish I could move out and have my own place. I do my best to encourage everyone on this forum who is struggling with their own demons - USMLE or others. But today, this is me. I hope and pray that tomorrow will be a brighter day.
Love,
pinkangel
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| mitty
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Hi pink,
It is natural to feel the way you are feeling now under the circumistance.Although preparing for the worst doesn't seems bad,you have to see the bright side too.You still have a chance to match.And God has His own way of doing things.I think you know that better than me.
It is good that you have plan B.I will pray for you.
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| niti
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Hi pink..
Just to let u know that I completely understand your situation but the pain & frustration what u r going through at this time..I just can imagine ! Now,having plan B is not a bad idea..research is a good option..& maybe in future it can enhance your chances in top unvi...or can lead a other better directions in your life...who knows?Beleive in God & in yourself.
You did all the best u could..& u did pretty good in every part of your life ( including your private life..)
My Best Wishes r always with u..
niti
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